Lucy, You Got Some 'Splainin To Do....
Oct. 9th, 2006 10:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgallerySo, um, I broke up with Anthony on Thursday, but you knew that.
I guess I kind of owe everyone an explanation, and this is easier and faster than becoming famous and having them make a Lifetime Movie of the Week about the whole thing. What it boils down to is that I'm really really really really not ready to be married yet, or, more importantly, monogamous, and I don't want to wake up when I'm 80 and resent him because I never got to date.
This seems like such a small, shallow thing (dating people), but in my life right now, it's huge.
These past four days have really been the longest of my life. It feels like Thursday and Friday were two years, instead of a day and a half. A lot of people seem to be upset with me right now, and the only one I understand is Anthony. Aimee says that, usually, when people break up, you can say that both parties contributed to the break up, and that this is all on me. That's absolutely true, but I don't understand why there has to be a villan in this situation at all. We broke up, but we're still friends. Hell, as of Saturday, we're dating. This may not be the wisest course of action that either of us have ever taken, but we're young, and that's what young folk do. That, and have really great sex at the words "This morning, I got sucked off by a complete stanger." Why that should turn me on so is at the bottom of a very long list of things to figure out about myself.
I guess I kind of owe everyone an explanation, and this is easier and faster than becoming famous and having them make a Lifetime Movie of the Week about the whole thing. What it boils down to is that I'm really really really really not ready to be married yet, or, more importantly, monogamous, and I don't want to wake up when I'm 80 and resent him because I never got to date.
This seems like such a small, shallow thing (dating people), but in my life right now, it's huge.
These past four days have really been the longest of my life. It feels like Thursday and Friday were two years, instead of a day and a half. A lot of people seem to be upset with me right now, and the only one I understand is Anthony. Aimee says that, usually, when people break up, you can say that both parties contributed to the break up, and that this is all on me. That's absolutely true, but I don't understand why there has to be a villan in this situation at all. We broke up, but we're still friends. Hell, as of Saturday, we're dating. This may not be the wisest course of action that either of us have ever taken, but we're young, and that's what young folk do. That, and have really great sex at the words "This morning, I got sucked off by a complete stanger." Why that should turn me on so is at the bottom of a very long list of things to figure out about myself.
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Date: 2006-10-09 06:53 pm (UTC)I think the natural reaction is to go to comfort the one who was "dumped", which may from other points of view look like choosing sides, but it isn't. And I know that being the one that initiates the break-up isn't usually feeling the greatest either.
So you know, I am here for you, both of you, since you are both my friends.