If you're here, you could be there.

I woke up around midnight, and couldn't get back to sleep at all. Alternated trying to sleep with taking care of a few things and video games. I did manage to finally make the jerk vid for Esparza. Since it was a special occasion, I fucked my Fleshlight and myself at the same time. It wasn't a terrible cumshot, but it definitely wasn't up to par. Then i made another video, and still jerked off later in the morning, too. I didn't tape the 3rd one, but it was a great shot.

At my appointment, I learned I'm not due for labs until October, which I guess is fine. I also learned that I'm 169 lbs, which I think is the most I've ever weighed. And not that I trust BMI, but it puts me on the edge of Overweight on their scale. My doc wants me to slow down on my booze, since that increases the likelihood of a seizure. I'd have just given lip service to it, but given how little I've been eating, and yet still gaining weight.... I managed to not drink any, but only had 1.5 protein shakes total, no actual food.

Managed to get all my work done and claims processed, but only started on tagging the backload of claims. Jacob messaged me, still wanting to be boyfriends. I know I move fast, but I feel like we don't really know each other, so I'm worried about what he sees in me. He asked for cumshot vids, but he's not on MeWe or Twitter. I've got a few of them uploaded to Pornhub, but no idea which ones. Nicholas also messaged me, wanting to fuck again, maybe make a video or something. I agreed, but put it off until tomorrow. I wanna pickup my room at least a little, first.

I did finally managed to clean out Mouse Kingdom, so at least that voice will quiet down. I haven't seen Houdini in a while, but he's eating his food, so at least I know he's still alive. I smoked through most of the rest of my Heavy Hitter, but didn't seem to get very stoned. I thought more about G, especially since I'm gonna try to take a little break from booze, but I don't have many happy memories with it, now that I'm thinking of it.

Lady Miss Friday was most insistent that I get off the computer in the evening, and come lay with her instead. Crashed early, unsurprisingly...though I beat off a 4th time just before I did.

Woke up with a little headache, but not nearly as hungover as I should have been. Tim teased me a little, telling me I was on the edge of unacceptable. I was pretty unacceptable at 17, so it sort of fits. He called Tami to pick him up, saying he wanted to be home by 11:30 to work on his boat. But then she got there and they lingered until 3. Not that I really had anything to do, I just didn't have my place to myself all weekend and wanted it. Coleman and Lee offered to have an impromptu get together at their place.

Harris hit me up early in the afternoon, but was going to North County and wouldn't be back until later. I hit up a couple people online, but he wasn't into any of the guys who were interested. Coleman and Lee didn't end up having a thing, and declined to come over, too. I always have a good time with him. I'd been hoping to flip, but I don't think he got prepped for it after all. I know my strong suit.

Mark, a parTy boy from years ago, hit me up to play with him and his friend Ethan. He was taking too long to respond online, as parTy boys often do, so I texted him instead. Happened to find close parking, and happened to see Ethan walking his dog, Daisy in the alley. Daisy is a senior lady. A *very* senior lady - she's missing an eye at this point, and her hearing is gone, too. But she's also incredibly sweet.

The boys slammed, I tried to encourage them to let Daisy stay under the bed, and their friend Greg was supposed to join as well, but his stomach wasn't cooperating. It was a really scattered time, as these things tend to be, but I managed to get fucked, and to do a lot of fucking. Mark and I took turns being Lucky Pierre, Ethan kept thinking he needed to get cleaned up, even though he was fine. They taped part of it, and broadcast another part. Ethan and I had a great connection every time we kissed, and I'd like to play with him when he's a little less high.

I explained why I don't ParTy to Ethan - because I'm super addictive, and have a hard time saying "no" once I've done something once. Which of course led him to offer me G some time in the future. While we were waiting for Ethan to shower, both Mark and I had to piss. I almost offered to let him piss in me, before remembering that can get you *very* high, and I couldn't call in to work the next day. I finally left them just as their other friend was arriving. Bummer, but he seemed pretty high, too, and I needed to get to bed. Had some leftovers when I got home, crashed in the living room.