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Anthony and I had a looooooooooooooooonnnnnngggg talk tuesday night following my relatively simple question "What're you doing tonight?", but without the usual answer of a finger pointed in my direction. We talked about a lot of things that we always cover, but one significant thing that we uncovered is that I felt very underappreciated in our relationship. I gave a lot, and continue to give, and have never asked for anything. I gave enough of myself that my motives should never be questioned. This came about because of my continual indignation when people suggest that I am using or manipulating the Boy, or that my motives are anything less than pure in dealing with him. Other people don't know the specifics of our situation, but he does, and people keep suggesting these things, so how vehemently can he be denying them?

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I have heard him deny accusations of wrongdoing on your part. I have heard him defend you. Any "bad" things I have heard have just been hurt not animosity or belief that you have bad intentions. He loves you, that hasn't changed and I believe that you love him. The relationship that the two of you had and the one that you have now will ALWAYS be the subject of speculation. Lots of people would love to have a relationship like the two of you shared and still share. Very few can remain close to a boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse/lover/partner that they have let go of, you have managed it and people will always wonder!
The pain pill I took kicked in in the middle of typing this so I hope it makes sense.