KATE!

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Saturday - Woke up fairly early, but laid in bed for a while before getting up and setting up my new computer. Everything went well, right up until it wanted me to purchase an ISP. I ended up hooking it up to the wired modem in Anthony's room. Poked about on My Heroes for a while, that sort of thing, and eventually Ken got up and we talked a little. I'm a little concerned that we never resolve things, just move on. I don't really know how things can be resolved, but oh, well. We talked for a little while - he'd decided not to attend the SDYP after all, and visit his brother instead. This actually works out quite well - the picnic (and much more to the point, the group) isn't really his thing, and walking around Coronado isn't my thing. I did, however, feel it was important to let him know that I have nothing against him coming to the picnic and similar events. I was actually running late at this point, so we got cleaned up asap, and headed out to our respective locations. I got a little lost (of course) finding the place, but eventually got there. Met Justin (who I've been chatting with on A4A for months now), chatted with Claude, and generally had a good time. There was a veggie tray, as well as chicken and bratwurst, but in spite of having not eaten anything execpt last night's flatbread, I opted against eating. We finally got around to the point of the meeting, which was basically a brainstorming session on how to attract more members. My 2 cents was to have a purpose, or a direction for events, and I gave myself as an example, that I wouldn't be there if it was just a picnic, but because it was a picnic for the purpose of x, I felt comfortable going. I saw another one of the guys that wants to date me, and gave him a ride to his car. This time I did end up going to the store - bought bread and lettuce from Ralph's, then headed over to TJ's. I was deciding what to buy, if anything, and then I saw that Tom (teddy-bear type who hosts karaoke at Flick's) was working, and went ahead and bought veg. mayo, soy nuggets, and canned tomatoes. Popped back in at Ralph's for just a moment to get real tomatoes and flowers for Ken before heading home.
Ken texted just as I was parking, that they were going to Betty's. I said I'd meet them there, though I hedged. I weighed the options in my head - I might order something at Betty's, though it would be heavily modified and not worth the $10, but in all likelihood I'd just sit and eat chips, then come home and have a sammich anyway. Called Ken, who didn't hear his phone (it was on vibrate), then made myself my first sammich of the month. TLT with soy nuggets. YUM! Execpt that it really didn't agree with me. I tried my damnest to get cleaned up in time for Ken to come home, but that didn't happen (not that sex came up). His borther and gf had tapped out for the night, and he wasn't sure what his plan was going to be, but knew he wanted a quiet evening. He laid down for a nap, and I joined him since my head hurt in addition to my tummy screaming at me. I couldn't sleep, but laying down did me good. Corresponded with The Boy regarding show stuff and the party. Ken made himself some cucumbers when he got up, and we watched "Straight Talk" until it was time for me to go.
Anthony still wasn't there when I got there, which I thought was odd, but Kate was barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen, and very excited to see me. I'm so so so so so so so so so so glad I went. She wasn't "LA" at all - just the same, fabulous Kate I always knew. Chatted with The Boy a bit once he finally got there, and with Chris about law school stuff, and with some other random folks about other random stuff. I thought about leaving several times, but came to the conclusion that Ken would either have met someone at Bourbon (where he mentioned he might go with Dallas), or just be home watching movies, and didn't really care to just call it a night. Again, I'm really glad I didn't. I talked with Kate more, and with The Boy more, and with Nicole, and her gay friend Marcus before it looked like everyone was tapping out. I wanted to say goodbye to Kate, but she wasn't feeling well and had retired to a bedroom. I wasn't sure what time it actually was when I got home, and Ken was already asleep. I reached for the clock, but found his phone first, so took that with me instead into the other room to get changed for bed without waking him. He woke up, and of course thought I was searching for dirt on his phone. I told him I was just checking the time, and I hesitated, but crawled into bed anyway. After a few minutes of him not touching me though, I came to the conclusion that, while it's completely understandable that he'd think I was snooping, I've been nothing but honest and forthright in the relationship, and it was insulting for me to have my statements questioned given that. Slept on the couch, though this time very poorly.