Don't Ruin It By Being You

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Tuesday - Woke up to the cold again, which was nice, though I was much more tired this time. I'd had a weird dream, where some shape changing monster kept trying to get into this girl's house by pretending to be her. It was creepy. Ken has started going to the gym before work, so we're waking up at 6 now, which suits me fine. I got into work early and decided to review mail instead of RC. I was tearing through it until I came to the 12-page split check with multiple bad accounts. I also got an e-mail from the guest star we had over last weekend - he apparently didn't know we were +, and was freaking out. I could have been very mean to him, but gave him the benefit of the doubt and said I hoped he was joking. That took most of my day, and more energy than I really had. On Monday, I didn't take my usual Green Tea + Raspberry Spark combo. Green tea is high in anti-oxidants, and the raspberry spark has ginseng and gingko biloba - all of which are supposed to help your immune system. I didn't take it on Monday because of Friday's news, but then I started thinking that maybe the reason my CD4 count is still in the "good" range, despite a higher than normal vl might be due to it. I managed to finish the crazy split check, the rest of the regular mail I had taken, my priorities, and RC a couple batches of splits before splitting myself. Stopped and got gas on the way home, and then stopped at the Fiesta Market. I was just going to get carrots, if they weren't too expensive, but they also had HUGE cheap cucumbers and bread, so I got those, too. Successfully did not gorge when I got home. Sent a message to thebody.com, asking why my hiv seems to be progressing so much faster than Ken's, and was just starting to get laundry together when Ken got home. He'd forgotten about condo-hunting with Nelson, so sent him a text, and after looking thoughtfully at the laundry, and lamenting that he only had a $20, he finally went to the bank for quarters. I started the first load of laundry, and he came back a little later with quarters, TJ's Chik'n Strips, frozen veggies, flat bread, and tofu. I'm not really sure what to make of this new, thoughtful, loving Ken, or how long it's going to last. He made a salad and went condo hunting, I got a message back that no, Dan-the-stupid-trick was not joking, and so I sent him info on condoms and safe sex, and was still nicer than he deserved. Ken came back from condo-hunting and made us dinner - I'd have liked to help, but he wouldn't hear of it. I finished laundry instead - we really had 4 loads, maybe 5, but I condensed it down to 3. He made us TJ's chik'n strips w/onion and red peppers on flat bread. I liked it, though he didn't care for the consistency of the strips. I could have told him you need to make sure they're really well done if he'd let me help. Anyway, I did dishes after that, and had one of the chocolate bars that I got in the PPK swap. It expires July 1, and had 230 calories for the whole thing, so I didn't feel too bad. It was bedtime before I knew it, and I kind of hoped for sex, but it was too warm. We still laid in bed talking for a while, absently touching, and the topic of how nice he was came up. I asked what prompted it again, and he got defensive, going so far as to say he just wouldn't do it anymore. I rolled over and went to sleep. Woke up around 4, when he got up to pee, and got up to go myself. I almost head-butted him, but then I remembered the exchange from just before we went to sleep, so I just peed and went back to sleep on my side of the bed.