In Phoenix
May. 24th, 2008 03:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgalleryMonday - Read the follow up post from Anthony, where he had promised to explain everything in his last, cryptic post...except that he just posted that he wasn't going to explain. Gah! Called him at work, and shockingly enough, he answered! I've had a couple talking tos about using the phone at work, but it should come as no surprise at this point the lengths I'll go to to find something out. Turns out Crosby had just quit the show for beyond lame reasons. It's nothing that hasn't happened before....I would say that Crosby being so into the show made it surprising, but that's not really unique, either. Happy to get the answer, at any rate.
Got an e-mail towards the end of the day from Sdpix, offering a free ticket to the Nicky's if I texted a certain number. I knew Nikki Harris was going to be there, so I called Anthony so he could go see her.....he had to work a double, but quite correctly stated that I'm actually a bigger fan of her than he is......I don't text, but I sent it on to Ken - he actually did it! Which just left me to get mine....called Anthony back, and he was nice enough to send the text for me....except that the ticket is actually ON his phone....finally just sent an e-mail and got my ticket. I was really surprised that Ken didn't show more hesitation in going....although he did bring up several complications (me not having a ticket before I e-mailed, me remembering to print the ticket, etc.). At home, we were talking about what to wear, and I mentioned that I didn't have my heart set on going, I just threw it out as an option. He really didn't want to go, but I guess had been going to go for me. I don't get that boy. When it's something that's really important to me (my last show of Rocky, for example), he's all about not doing things he doesn't want to....when it's something I'm okay with, he's ready to go for me. Ended up doing absolutely nothing with my evening, and he burned a CD. Meh.
Tuesday - I've got that thing going off in my head about Brian - a guy that Ken met at last years's White Party, who lives in Vegas. I don't necessarily think they fooled around, though I don't discount that....it's just that feeling that I'm not being told everything and I don't like it. It's actually been bothering me since Ken came back from his work trip to Vegas, and had messaged (but not gotten together with) Brian, I just didn't mention it in case there was anything there. I desperately want to know everything, but I'm gaining a sense of timing for these things. That being said, I can only take so much, and this buzzing was eating up all of my attention. Made no attempt to hide my mood when Ken got home, and Ken pressed me for what was wrong. I told him, but he maintains that there's nothing I'm not being told. On the plus side, he was very very affectionate and loving. David invited us out for drinks at Mo's....I suggested we invite Sean as well, but that was vetoed. Chatting with David was lovely, and he bought drinks. We had a couple at Mo's, and then moved over to The Loft. I was pretty proud of myself at Mo's - when David indicated it was our turn to talk, and Ken seemed content to leave it at "things are good", not only did I jump in, but I also made sure to ask Ken about things I knew he would talk about. Social skills - I has them. The Loft was fun - we saw the gents that had offered us coke way back in the day...I was a little tipsy, and Ken wanted me to drive home, but he didn't feel right doing that unless I stopped drinking right then....in the middle of a drink....leaving something of mine unconsumed.....to be thrown away..and wasted.....yeah, not going to happen. We argued a little bit on the way back to the car, but I felt myself getting angry, so I just walked ahead, knowing Ken wouldn't bother to catch up. Much the opposite, he took the long way round to cool off himself. We started arguing in the car again, so as soon as we parked, I jumped out and walked inside. He went straight to bed, I stayed up a little while and ate. Dropped the mayo, and cut my finger cleaning it up. I hate thinking about how careful I need to be with my blood nowadays.
Wednesday - Talked with Ken in the morning before we left - convinced him that the night before wasn't as bad as he thought it was - even my storming off was for the best. Could it have ended better? Yes. Could it have ended A LOT worse? Definitely! Anyway, I stopped at the Ralph's in La Jolla before going home...a very ambitious and nearly disastrous endeavor...ended up getting home around 5 because of it. It was Jason's b-day...Ken was kind of hoping that I would take him out somewhere, but Jason just wanted to come over and chat and drink and the like. I was UBER randy, so I still showered and shaved and the like...watched some porn, partially to make a DVD, and partially to watch porn. Ken stopped in, and watched for a bit but made no move. When he left, I took my boxers off, laid the blanket down, etc. Our roommate was home, so I stayed behind the door, and when Ken came in, asked if he'd like to join me.
He laughed. And laughed. And when he ran out of laugher, forced some more. I'm sure I've been more humiliated in my life before, but I can't remember a time. Even pissing on the nightstand pales in comparison. I'm never suggesting sex again.
We still ended up having sex, and he made us TJ's Indian for dinner. I ate a little too much, but that was fine. Ken wanted something sweet, so volunteered to grab some Whole Soy & Co. Chocolate Frozen Yogurt...ended up going to the Ralph's near home instead - got oatmeal and sugar-free syrup for me and Brn & Jerry's for Ken. Jason was already there by the time I got back, and we chatted for a bit. He was goooood and tipsy by the time he left, but didn't overstay his welcome. I think he had a good b-day, at any rate. Even though we'd already had sex, i still found myself randy. Nothing to do but beat off in the bathroom.
Thursday - Finally made it down to the Che Cafe to help out with their AYCE - I was shocked at the number of volunteers they had! I guess it was the day for it, because they seemed surprised as well. There was a girl making cupcakes from Vegan Cupcakes Take Over the World, which gave me a total warm fuzz. I remembered post from the PPK where people would ask about using Isa's recipes at other bakeries and stuff, and she's always 100% for it. Made me very happy to see it in action. I only had one bowl of peanut stir fry, then headed home. Ken hadn't left for poker yet, so I was able to kiss him goodbye. I put a load of laundry in the wash, dashed over to CDC to pick up my script, and chatted with Aimee and Anna before leaving. We had a good laugh over the possibilities of Derrick and I getting drunk near each other - he apparently gets "punchy", and of course I become snarky/a raging bitch. The only awkward thing about me getting in a fight nowadays is my same worry from Tuesday. Goddamn this sucks.
Headed home, switched out my laundry, and ate a bunch. I ate TVP and about 3 cups of oatmeal. I was just so damn tired. Finished the laundry, beat off again, curled up to sleep. Ken came home a little before 12:30...mentioned that Sean had shown up to poker....mentioned that he liked being able to come home to me...made the joke of "after having sex with 12 guys"....I don't have the buzz on that, I'm just paranoid. Probably.
Friday - Meant to go into work a couple hours early, but ended up just being there about 30 min. early. Very little to do, which was kind of fortunate, because the computers were being all kinds of wonky and slow. We got a big drop of priorities just as I was getting ready to leave - I blasted through them, but still left a half hour late. This put me home just a few minutes after Ken, but left me with no time to get cleaned up. I was surly, though not quite snappish, and Ken was loving. The drive out to Phoenix wasn't nearly as bad as I remember, though it was also about a half hour shorter than our last one. The only awkwards parts were the crazy weather (we drove through a rainstorm AND a sandstorm), and the part where I told Ken that the depression I've been through over the course of the past year has been bad enough to make all the other's in my life not even seem like depression. It's only the truth, but without my saying anything else, Ken correctly inferred that it was directly because of him. I don't really know how to comfort him on that front. Anyway, Todd's friend was also staying there, so we got settled in, got groceries, that sort of thing. I got the message that my UPS package needed some kind of payment, and called customer service, who was no help whatsoever. We had some drinks, some dinner, got in the hot tub for a bit, but ultimately just called it a night. We watched a little bit of Clerks 2 before going to bed - that movie is painfully bad and overwritten. It's just trying soooooooo hard to be soooooo smart. The bed in the guest room is close to the ground, so I slept like a rock.
Got an e-mail towards the end of the day from Sdpix, offering a free ticket to the Nicky's if I texted a certain number. I knew Nikki Harris was going to be there, so I called Anthony so he could go see her.....he had to work a double, but quite correctly stated that I'm actually a bigger fan of her than he is......I don't text, but I sent it on to Ken - he actually did it! Which just left me to get mine....called Anthony back, and he was nice enough to send the text for me....except that the ticket is actually ON his phone....finally just sent an e-mail and got my ticket. I was really surprised that Ken didn't show more hesitation in going....although he did bring up several complications (me not having a ticket before I e-mailed, me remembering to print the ticket, etc.). At home, we were talking about what to wear, and I mentioned that I didn't have my heart set on going, I just threw it out as an option. He really didn't want to go, but I guess had been going to go for me. I don't get that boy. When it's something that's really important to me (my last show of Rocky, for example), he's all about not doing things he doesn't want to....when it's something I'm okay with, he's ready to go for me. Ended up doing absolutely nothing with my evening, and he burned a CD. Meh.
Tuesday - I've got that thing going off in my head about Brian - a guy that Ken met at last years's White Party, who lives in Vegas. I don't necessarily think they fooled around, though I don't discount that....it's just that feeling that I'm not being told everything and I don't like it. It's actually been bothering me since Ken came back from his work trip to Vegas, and had messaged (but not gotten together with) Brian, I just didn't mention it in case there was anything there. I desperately want to know everything, but I'm gaining a sense of timing for these things. That being said, I can only take so much, and this buzzing was eating up all of my attention. Made no attempt to hide my mood when Ken got home, and Ken pressed me for what was wrong. I told him, but he maintains that there's nothing I'm not being told. On the plus side, he was very very affectionate and loving. David invited us out for drinks at Mo's....I suggested we invite Sean as well, but that was vetoed. Chatting with David was lovely, and he bought drinks. We had a couple at Mo's, and then moved over to The Loft. I was pretty proud of myself at Mo's - when David indicated it was our turn to talk, and Ken seemed content to leave it at "things are good", not only did I jump in, but I also made sure to ask Ken about things I knew he would talk about. Social skills - I has them. The Loft was fun - we saw the gents that had offered us coke way back in the day...I was a little tipsy, and Ken wanted me to drive home, but he didn't feel right doing that unless I stopped drinking right then....in the middle of a drink....leaving something of mine unconsumed.....to be thrown away..and wasted.....yeah, not going to happen. We argued a little bit on the way back to the car, but I felt myself getting angry, so I just walked ahead, knowing Ken wouldn't bother to catch up. Much the opposite, he took the long way round to cool off himself. We started arguing in the car again, so as soon as we parked, I jumped out and walked inside. He went straight to bed, I stayed up a little while and ate. Dropped the mayo, and cut my finger cleaning it up. I hate thinking about how careful I need to be with my blood nowadays.
Wednesday - Talked with Ken in the morning before we left - convinced him that the night before wasn't as bad as he thought it was - even my storming off was for the best. Could it have ended better? Yes. Could it have ended A LOT worse? Definitely! Anyway, I stopped at the Ralph's in La Jolla before going home...a very ambitious and nearly disastrous endeavor...ended up getting home around 5 because of it. It was Jason's b-day...Ken was kind of hoping that I would take him out somewhere, but Jason just wanted to come over and chat and drink and the like. I was UBER randy, so I still showered and shaved and the like...watched some porn, partially to make a DVD, and partially to watch porn. Ken stopped in, and watched for a bit but made no move. When he left, I took my boxers off, laid the blanket down, etc. Our roommate was home, so I stayed behind the door, and when Ken came in, asked if he'd like to join me.
He laughed. And laughed. And when he ran out of laugher, forced some more. I'm sure I've been more humiliated in my life before, but I can't remember a time. Even pissing on the nightstand pales in comparison. I'm never suggesting sex again.
We still ended up having sex, and he made us TJ's Indian for dinner. I ate a little too much, but that was fine. Ken wanted something sweet, so volunteered to grab some Whole Soy & Co. Chocolate Frozen Yogurt...ended up going to the Ralph's near home instead - got oatmeal and sugar-free syrup for me and Brn & Jerry's for Ken. Jason was already there by the time I got back, and we chatted for a bit. He was goooood and tipsy by the time he left, but didn't overstay his welcome. I think he had a good b-day, at any rate. Even though we'd already had sex, i still found myself randy. Nothing to do but beat off in the bathroom.
Thursday - Finally made it down to the Che Cafe to help out with their AYCE - I was shocked at the number of volunteers they had! I guess it was the day for it, because they seemed surprised as well. There was a girl making cupcakes from Vegan Cupcakes Take Over the World, which gave me a total warm fuzz. I remembered post from the PPK where people would ask about using Isa's recipes at other bakeries and stuff, and she's always 100% for it. Made me very happy to see it in action. I only had one bowl of peanut stir fry, then headed home. Ken hadn't left for poker yet, so I was able to kiss him goodbye. I put a load of laundry in the wash, dashed over to CDC to pick up my script, and chatted with Aimee and Anna before leaving. We had a good laugh over the possibilities of Derrick and I getting drunk near each other - he apparently gets "punchy", and of course I become snarky/a raging bitch. The only awkward thing about me getting in a fight nowadays is my same worry from Tuesday. Goddamn this sucks.
Headed home, switched out my laundry, and ate a bunch. I ate TVP and about 3 cups of oatmeal. I was just so damn tired. Finished the laundry, beat off again, curled up to sleep. Ken came home a little before 12:30...mentioned that Sean had shown up to poker....mentioned that he liked being able to come home to me...made the joke of "after having sex with 12 guys"....I don't have the buzz on that, I'm just paranoid. Probably.
Friday - Meant to go into work a couple hours early, but ended up just being there about 30 min. early. Very little to do, which was kind of fortunate, because the computers were being all kinds of wonky and slow. We got a big drop of priorities just as I was getting ready to leave - I blasted through them, but still left a half hour late. This put me home just a few minutes after Ken, but left me with no time to get cleaned up. I was surly, though not quite snappish, and Ken was loving. The drive out to Phoenix wasn't nearly as bad as I remember, though it was also about a half hour shorter than our last one. The only awkwards parts were the crazy weather (we drove through a rainstorm AND a sandstorm), and the part where I told Ken that the depression I've been through over the course of the past year has been bad enough to make all the other's in my life not even seem like depression. It's only the truth, but without my saying anything else, Ken correctly inferred that it was directly because of him. I don't really know how to comfort him on that front. Anyway, Todd's friend was also staying there, so we got settled in, got groceries, that sort of thing. I got the message that my UPS package needed some kind of payment, and called customer service, who was no help whatsoever. We had some drinks, some dinner, got in the hot tub for a bit, but ultimately just called it a night. We watched a little bit of Clerks 2 before going to bed - that movie is painfully bad and overwritten. It's just trying soooooooo hard to be soooooo smart. The bed in the guest room is close to the ground, so I slept like a rock.
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