Inversion and Patterns

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I wasn't really sure what I was going to do with my morning, but I managed to stay focused and pound out the work. Terry came over to ask for ketamine and help. They got a 3 day notice to pay or quit, today was day 3. I looked it up to make sure, but 1) it's not that they physically evict you after the 3 days, that just starts the eviction process, 2) the courts work on business days, so Monday would be Day 4. Since they're moving anyway, I explained the process and told them to just tell AKR Properties that, and they should be fine. Even if the management company went ahead with the eviction, that process can be stretched out for months. The management company can't hurt them, just their credit. He asked if I'd sign on as their lawyer. Sure. I'm confident at this point that I could assist them. They'd be better off with my representation than without it. The attorneys on our retained Watch list all put their clients in a worse place. He sputtered something about payment, but that's one of the conclusions I've come to. I'm good. I make enough to pay my bills with what I get from ADI. Any bonus money can go to charity or savings. He said he'd give me whatever they won from some upcoming expected windfall, but we can figure that out when and if it happens. I decided to go ahead and spend the $200 I previously withdrew for carts. Since THC0 is $7-8/g, it'd be cheaper to stay rationing and buy the bulk THC0 when I can, but then I decided to both it. The money I spend on this isn't going to land me homeless on the street giving handjobs for crack. I've spent *a lot* more for a lot less return, and since I forgot about it before, it's like bonus money. so this will help me go longer before ordering more THC0 so I can save money and get back on top of my savings. I tried to order 10 sativa and 10 indica, and from there, whatever's clever. Whichever 10 indica and 10 sativa carts would be best for them to sell. The nice thing about finding dxm is that it's been making everything I smoke feel more potent. They didn't have any of either. Silver lining (not the stellar track by Rilo Kiley, but we can listen to that next), they did have hybrids. Ordered 10 of those, figuring that balanced out somehow for what I was looking to do, and saves me money. Terry seemed exceptionally inebriated, and while I had things to take care of (including him, since he was so inebriated, and he took a Facebook Live Video or something. And I'm just learning how much I love and how helpful it is to keep everything in balance. Which feels at least related to this moder-ation I keep hearing about. Terry came over again in the afternoon, but in much less of a tizzy than earlier. I got him back up and running, but then he wanted a kiki. Just sat down on the arm of the tub and turned on the camera. I wanted to at least explain the state of things, since the place is messy even for me, but ended up just talking about representing them. I tried to convey the babysitting nature of the situation. My cartridges didn't get delivered until after work, which was totally fine, but they just stopped responding after I told them I would wait in the parking lot. Awkward. Julian stopped in on his way home from work, I went to Terry's, and then we sat on the steps. I talked Terry and Taka through the process over and over again. Mostly just reassuring them they wouldn't wake up to the cops evicting them tomorrow. Terry went a bit vague every time I mentioned the convenience in the timing, since they're planning to move, but I didn't pursue it. Opposite, really, I've managed to avoid feeling responsible for it, and responsible for not having the solution. Maybe that's why I'm so depressed? This whole system is fucked, I hate that all species outbreed our resources, that scroll of truth given to us by my undergrad bio professor, so that starvation mentality that Brene Brown talks about is sort of how we're here. Christina mentioned another organism that apparently got two tries at life trees, but presumably, that lack of competition and mutation is what killed them. How do we evolve without competition? Then it hit me that as a species, the dinosaurs had us beat. Humans have been here for a couple thousand years, dinosaurs were here for millions. We're an infinitesimal blip in the timeline of the planet, the galaxy , but the wacky thing is that if we build AI intelligent enough, the robots themselves will improve themselves. The Matrix am related myths give technology human emotions, but that's unrealistic, or at least would be to start, and we'd presumably get the absolute best ethics and legal philosophers to work together to give those first one the best ethics, so any robots they built would only be better. It's insane to me that we're this infinitesimally small blip, but we might invent the solution. And I so love dichotomous things juxtaposed together. "Magic" is just technology that hasn't been discovered yet. Anyway, I used to hate myself for not having a simple, logical answer. on how we're all gonna get out of this, but I'm tired. I can't kill myself any more for an unanswerable question that no one assigned me. I'm putting myself first which in the realest way. Which is it's own kind of dichotomy. By being selfish, I'm ultimately doing more good. Beautiful. When the driver showed up, I thought I gave him $100, plus $2 tip, and I apologized for not having a bigger bill to tip him. Then he drove back and informed me I did give him a bigger tip - I'd given him $202. He could've taken the extra hundred and I would've just thought I misplaced it. I gave him an extra $20.