Resistance

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We'll start with today. I had to go into the office for a meeting with Kathy. I rescheduled my Dr. appt because of it, but I'm alright with that. Parking seems to be getting worse, and even though I said I like the walk, and I do, I wanted to be early for some reason. But forgiving myself is this new thing I'm doing. I decided to write the gratitude note this morning, and before the meeting. I distinctly remember that vicious voice whispering I would be fired today, and I wanted to make sure I posted it even if I got fired. Granted, writing it before was also a good move in that this way they know I didn't write it just to suck up and persuade them to let me work from home forever...and that might help persuade them to let me work from home forever. The meeting got off to a rough start, as she asked me to tell her why she shouldn't put me back into the office 5-days/week. No. The short answer is because I'd quit. I told them before that if they wanted us on site full time, that's fine, I just need some help with my resume. To paraphrase Winnowill, hard won the wounds I've healed, the ground I've gained. I'm not giving it up. I explained things from my point of view: I'm maxxed out on PTO at the moment, and mega-fucking-on top of the work. I do it before the other paralegals even see it. And as I fucking should, by the way, since I'm a licensed attorney working as a paralegal. That's a big part of why I'm so grateful to them, actually. All the paperless moves ADI has made completely remove process and required organizational skills, and it turns out those were the things standing in my way. Fuck, I was really mad at myself for not being this good before. But now that I am, I want to bassically work as close to salaried as I can. Since companies are required to set aside money for PTO in advance and I can't earn any more PTO, I'm saving them money right now by not taking any time off. The money they'd be setting aside for my PTO just stays with them. If I need to time shift within their hours, they should chill on when I do it. JJD talked to me after and I calmed down. I didn't get fired yet, which is wonderful, and I know that I'd be willing to, which also feels great. RAWR... And since I was in the office, I went back through all my old hard mail, did all my work for the day, then got ahead again for tomorrow.

I thought about stopping at the store on the way home, but since I'm trying to save money, told myself I'd just eat soy curls or whatever. I just need to stretch it a few more days, I'll be back on top of my savings, and then I can buy more THC0. I got stoned, beat off some, journaled, and chatted extensively over text with Colleen. I am pwning it.