Sun Through Rain

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This time I did sleep late, didn't even take care of Julian's kids. It took a lot of effort to get out of bed. Not just because my back was still fucked, though that helped. The day felt strange. I cleaned for a bit, hoping for ... Something. Maybe it was direction or purpose? Was going to fill out form 1023, but it's all automated now. Great, but there's a bunch of stuff I still need to do for it, like get an EIN, and you can't apply for one on weekends. I remembered to message W4less but they were out of house carts. Tomorrow is fine. Really, it was so late in the afternoon by that time I figured I'd take the day(s) off for a T Break.

Julian didn't come home for lunch so I just hopped into DND at 3. Well...4. There were lots of cancellations and technical difficulties, and I thought the session might not happen, but it did. A fittingly weird session with were tigers and mass murders. I heard Julian yelling for me towards the very end of the session. He said something about a fire, but it was just him and Terry flaming. And drinking. Julian was wearing Terry's asymmetrical wig, but I just want everyone to be happy, not necessarily for everyone to emulate me. They wanted to go play pool and invited me. I was very, very happy staying with LMF, but I also felt like this would be another thing for us to do together. It took some finagling and a couple more beers but we got there. I brought my remaining poppers and everyone loved them. Jay was at PECS and we were going to head there, but Kevin threw a tantrum. Cussed Julian out, pulled over on his way back but I didn't stop the train since no one else noticed him. He just circled the block and nearly hit Terry's car. It was a very awkward situation, and then Terry called the property owner. Julian, for his part, was perfect. When Kevin was cussing him out, he just walked away. Both times.

We did make it to PECS but Jay was gone. Someone was doing a bunch of pushups outside. It was the bouncer, but he said he was sad and bored to excuse it. That, of course, set me off, but he just blew it off. I saw Marcus inside, then went out to the patio with the boys. Lots of very, very drunk and very, very pushy folks, but highlights for me were Chris introducing me to his friend as Lady Miss Friday's handmaid was amazing. He previously, extremely sincerely, thanked me for my um.. Words...when he was going through a rough time. I also saw Alex and George, though I didn't get a chance to say hi to George. Alex remembered Julian from Mo's and we might all have a 3 way. Got everyone home, though Julian wanted McDonald's. He was back on his kick about needing meat, said veg food fucked with his tummy. Okay, I tried. I went to bed, but he came back after his feast because he lost his phone and wallet. Found those, I laid down with him for a while until my guilt/need for LMF really started fucking with me.