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Oddly still very tired in the morning but woke Julian up at 7, gave Juno his shot and whatnot. Felt a little fuzzy at work but now that I'm not hungover all the time, I don't need to be top of my game all the time to make up for it. Might well have just been anemia. I still managed to finish everything I think I needed to do, though I didn't quite get to where I could journal. Especially since the water was turned off today, I wasn't expecting Julian home for lunch, though I did at least remember the pitcher of water to make him a fresh coffee. Even more surprising, I heard a knock just a few minutes after he left. He commandeered my key since I kept locking him out, so I knew it couldn't be that. I could swear I've got multiples of it already, but that's for later. It turned out to be Other Julian again, though I'm still not super sure what he wanted or needed. Something about finding needles and not wanting to relapse. I offered to take them and drop them off at like...the county or FHC or something later. He didn't want to do that either but I couldn't give him a ride to do it himself, so I suggested The Center instead. Not too far of a walk, he went with that. Also he beat off on the couch. Nice dick, but I definitely wasn't feeling it. He talked a lot about not wanting to continue living with his ex but not having any choice, being so new out of his addiction. I suggested a few places, including The Center, but I'm well aware I don't have the resources to help him. He did eventually get a ride home, and I felt like he'd have become a guest if I was still in my old apartment. Or even didn't have Julian here.

I got another message from a potential client, this one a long time listener, first time caller. I like that I can give fan service. Minding yesterday's fight, I made sure to mention the marriage in the prices - bassically I am moving forward with 200/me 300/we. It's more money total for us and earing 150/hr is very good money. Unfortunately, the client stopped messaging after he asked if Julian bottoms. Julian and I discussed putting mention and pics of him in my profile instead of him getting his own. Honestly, if there's a way I can keep him and my night job, that'd be great. And perhaps(?...perhaps?, perhaps?) I'd choose Julian over it. It helps that I've considered retiring as soon as I can afford it anyway, but I still think it's progress.

I told Julian about the visit and the potential client, but nothing to be done about them now. He was out of cigarettes and we were down to one serving of instant coffee. Devil on my shoulder, Julian persuaded me to buy more of the super sale creamer. Then I also splurged on green tea instead of the Psst - Dirt Cheap brand. Like that time I ordered my usual well vodka & diet and Efrain reminded me he gave me an open tab so I went Uber Posh: a vanilla well vodka & diet. Julian had also noticed that even when we cook together, I don't always eat. I know my tendencies, so any night we cook together, I'll agree to eat it at the table. We watched the last of Emily in Paris and while I was dismayed the season ended, the next season should be out soon. I love whoever the costume designer is for the show, and I think Julian noticed color themes with the set.