Choices

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Woke up next to LMF, like, right next to. We've got a new arrangement with blankets that she seems to like much better. I made my tea and some of the leftover rice from the other night, plus soy curls and sauce...and threw it all up. I'm not going back to bulimia, but I had no complaints vomiting up what felt like largely empty calories. Felt distracted in the morning, though I kind of ran out of work to do. I don't even know what I was doing, but I was screaming at myself both for doing everyone else's work and for failing to do it. I calmed myself down and managed to get enough work done. Not only that, I pried myself away from overworking to update my journal. On my lunch, I paid my credit card & swung by Dr. Kahn's office to pick up the sample size antidepressant he'd mentioned. Trintellix. We'll give it a shot.

I made sure I was done journaling by the time he got home so we could do whatever. It felt kind of awkward, but we watched Mother's Day, an ensemble dramedy with an eclectic cast. It was decent, I really love Cameron Esposito's hair and I love that I recognize character actress Margo Martindale, strangely thanks to her work in the cartoon Bojack Horseman. It was fine. It wasn't quite bedtime for me when it finished, but neither of us had any idea what to do or watch. I surfed around and found a documentary called "Dogs." It was perfect and wonderful, even though I was bobbing at the surface for no reason I could really think of. Maybe that Trintellix will work.