Blue Sky Makes You Wonder

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Colleen replied that she agreed fully, but then said something about being reluctant to tell me, not wanting to burden me. I thought all day, but couldn't figure out the right way to tell her she needn't worry about that. Between Standard Machismo Billy Badass and Emotional Masochism, I ain't scared a' nothin'. Tim called me before work and he's still figuring out what to do. He asked for the money for his loan payment, but instead of pulling out cash for him to swing by and pick up, I just Zelled it to him. We'll still see what's going to happen with his rent. He'd asked me how he could help Symbism and I didn't really have an answer at the time, but I figured he's close and has experience with graphic design, so maybe he could help decide/make a symbol for Symbism? As always, I parsed as I went. Browsed through existing images and concepts, sorted out what I'm even looking for. The animal kingdom is far too diverse to use a paw or anything anatomical for it. I thought maybe something using the infinity symbol, and briefly considered melding that with a heart symbol. I sent a couple vague concepts to Tim, but he just said "very nice." Great that he's at least ostensibly on board, but not really what I asked for. I'll get there.

I've had such a creative boner lately. I want to make memes but don't have the photoshop skills for it. I want to write sketches, but...I suppose I could just add to my hobbies, actually. Could we write just like...a book of sketches and sell them to SNL or something? I did finally make my Godzilla v Kong image, even if it wasn't the perfect Godzilla as Furkid fantasy I'd imagined. Man, that could even be a webcomic or series of memes with a pet Godzilla. There was another meme I wanted to make but I forgot it. Comedy sketch concepts are similarly sporadic. I think I did once try to keep an idea journal so I'd stop forgetting these things but of course I couldn't keep track of it, either.

I still hadn't heard from Sinai, so I emailed her again giving her an easy out of just "Wacky Technology!" She took it, and we'll figure it out. On the other side of things, I did an okay job of not trying to hide or cover up my mistakes. These are people who didn't fire me for 2019. They're not going to fire me for not sending enough D3Ls. I tried to stay focused again and I'm really gelling with the progression of remote work. We're on the verge of having claims be entirely handled in CMS, same with TDP work, and I'll continue to excel the more concentrated it becomes. Obviously, I suppose, given that I'd lose my head if it wasn't stapled to my neck.

Merryweather had been getting quite bold the past few days. I'd just be sitting, standing, or even walking and suddenly feel her scampering up my leg or over my feet. I'm here for it, obv, but I was terrified I'd kick her or step on her or something. Tonight, though, she mostly stayed in Mouse Kingdom with her sisters. And often these days, I'll notice Lady Miss Friday's absence only to find her hanging out on the couch alone. I am ecstatic that she's expanding the territory she feels comfortable in. Really ecstatic. I saw Houdini in his Strawberry and had to fight down the paranoid urge to wake him. As old as he is, I imagine that waking him to make sure he's not dead would eventually contribute to changing the outcome.

I made sure to review and return message Christina on Marco Polo since she mentioned she's missing community (not the show). In doing so I learned that 1) I am no better at taking notes or making an outline than I was my entire scholastic career, and 2) there are mobile emulators so you can access your apps on your desktop. That second feels a little L.A. Story, but see above re: concentration. In spite of my attempt to outline things, I still rambled almost incoherently. And I realized I have no idea how to delete a draft on the app. I'm old.

I was very, very tempted to run over to Ralph's to buy wine, but I put it off until tomorrow. Laid in bed and journaled until bedtime with Lady Miss Friday right next to me. I am that cartoon of the person in bed with their cat saying they've already got plans and can't go out.