HONK

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I felt very rested in the morning, and happy with all my decisions yesterday. And morning wood. I dunno if I'm just getting old or this is more repercussions from last year, but it's definitely become much more infrequent. I thought about making a video, but threw out a bunch of anxiety traps. I'm too fat, too old, my bed isn't made, I'd just shoot jelly, etc etc. I ended up making my bed anyway while Lady Miss Friday was in the other room. And I still didn't let perfect be the enemy of good here. Brushing all that catnip and such off the bed, how horrible would it look if you didn't vacuum again? And Lady Miss Friday hates even the quiet vacuum, and you just vacuumed. How could you be so mean? I took the weekend off from drinking coffee, mostly just for tolerance purposes. I dug into my Instant Decaf Coffee, literally, since it was hard as a rock. I scraped out a bunch of it, then just added water to the brick of the stuff to make my own kind of coffee concentrate. It worked well enough, and I actually kind of liked it.

Tim called wanting me to swing down. I still haven't fixed my tires, and I felt like I had other things I had to do. Decided to look into funding for Symbism and SMART Recovery. I also did a little searching for what Youtube Music means, and it looks like I'll need to find a new music host. I'm up to the hunt. I also saw a post about geese, and a brief scouting led me to The Goose (https://slate.com/technology/2019/10/untitled-goose-game-memes-are-about-everything-honk-honk.html)

I looked into funding, and outside of seeing that there are government grants available, didn't really see much. So...no reason not to start the thing? I feel like I should maybe talk to a few folks who have a religion first. Sort of a focus group. I started browsing SMART Recovery, too, but kept getting side tracked. And part of me going to that simplistic place, where I'd find a post called "How to Not be an Addict." And feeling preemptive failure for not finding it and doing it.

There was some back and forth for my truly free time. Lady Miss Friday wanted my company for a bit, so I laid down with her and played the various video games on my phone. I had a vague dissatisfaction with myself, that I should have been in the living room playing video games there or watching Netflix. But like...if I'm happy laying next to Lady Miss Friday and playing video games on my phone...why the fuck not? Later in the evening, I was going to watch Netflix, but Lady Miss Friday was sleeping by herself on the couch. That's *very* unusual, might even be unique, so I figured she wanted to be alone. She woke up not too long later, and we went out to watch Hilda on Netflix. I really enjoy that show, and might buy the graphic novels. I also love the music, and texted Patrick that the intro synth sounds like "Boy" by Odesza. He texted me later to note that Grimes does the music. Mind blown, but I think he might have told me that before. After I went to bed, I felt a tickling on my leg, and saw Fauna running around. Totes sweet and adorable, but the whole reason I keep my kids in Mouse Kingdom to begin with is so I don't roll over them in my sleep. Plus all those gnawing fears about her having climbed up, but unable to get back down, etc., so I put her back.