We Belong

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In my conversations yesterday, one of the gents I spoke to lives in Missouri, and is quite adorable. He offered me literally anything I wanted (that he could provide) if I would come out and visit. I said I would think about it, but it's not very likely. Sure, because he's not wealthy or a client, but mostly because of my growing codependency with Lady Miss Friday. I did offer to help with the airfare if he wanted to come out here, though. And then immediately felt crushing guilt, like I was cheating on Julian. I am aware that we're no good for each other, but as you're aware, I also have monstrous, festering guilt over "getting over" anyone.

I stayed focused all day, and remembered to make sure my webcam was cooperating in time for the Zoom meeting. Ishared my new mask with everyone, and found out Scotch almost died earlier this week. I gave what comfort I could, but forgot that extremely important, if unfortunate, note that the best possible scenario is to outlive them. Pets who's owner dies first have a very rough go of it.

Potmatess was still out of Northern Lights....and actually, in searching their site, they were out of all brands of Northern Lights. But they did have a B2G1 on vapes, so I snagged a Skywalker OG and OG Kush from Alpine, and a Napalm OG from Big Chief. Unfortunately, the OG Kush seems to be defective, and the Napalm OG, ineffective. The Skywalker is not horrid, but I still took edibles and drank.

In scrolling back through my FB, I noticed Patrick's name wasn't highlightable any more and I couldn't find him by searching. Even I'm not so paranoid that I thought he blocked me, but I did call him to check in. He just dropped his FB because he needs to focus on school. We actually talked for quite some time, despite my inebriation.

Xochi's package from UPS arrived, and when I opened it, it turned out to be a menorah. She wrote an amazing note with it, and my eyes watered. It reinforced that despite all my failings, ADI is is the right place for me.