Delicate Balancing

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I was sleepy enough to insist Lady Miss Friday finish the food she had instead of putting out more.....the first time she asked. We laid down staring at each other until I had to get up for work. Since I'd been too lazy to make my coffee in advance, I made a fresh pot and put my first cup in the freezer. I figured out a moment later I could use the freezer packs to cool it even faster, but when I opened the door to check on it, it spilled everywhere, and I had to start a new pot. Good opportunity to clean the floor, I suppose. Our meeting was fun, it's always good to see everyone, and I didn't even try to hide my explosion of joy when Lady Miss Friday got up from her nap and joined.

I started watching porn on my lunch break, but Lady Miss Friday was sleeping under the bed, so I took the opportunity I missed yesterday and cleaned. Vacuumed, picked up my clothes I've been dropping all over, put the worse ones in the hamper. I even used the detached hose to get a bunch of corners and such. Largely due to the bedding bulk for Mouse Kingdom, it was over a full canister.

I also ordered some vitamins I was out of, and that started a hemorrhage of spending. I bought the Mongolian stir-fry sauce, then re-ordered soy curls as well. It was about $100 total. Not exactly going to be the straw that breaks the Squeaker's bank. More than that, this sort of thinking, of saving money by avoiding groceries is just that Depression Era syndrome trying to claw me back in. I'd hoped to finish the full claims queue, but one of the 6's was an absolute *monster.* I also tried to get stoned, but I think one of my carts is broken. I can rarely get smoke from it. Funnily enough, my other cart is bassically the opposite.

I beat off twice, but didn't film either. Both shots were stellar, but I don't think I want to film again while I'm so out of shape. I watched Lucifer in the evening, and found myself getting very, very frustrated that I couldn't get high "enough." I thought several times about sneaking out to snag vodka, but I'm looking for alternatives to booze. I had a small amount of coffee left from this morning, but figured I could just take Seroquel, and even if that didn't work, it's the weekend.

Then it clicked for me. I remembered the other night when my pills started to kick in while Tim was here. I sort of felt....spacey. Numb. I kept smoking, but I ended up taking quite a few Seroquels, as well. It got me where I was looking to go. Bonus, I got to pounce on two new songs from Lucifer!