Blind Destiny

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I actually thought it was the weekend when I woke up. I did manage to get to work on time, but my remote connection did a weird thing where just the desktop was remote connected. All the shortcuts at the bottom still went to my home computer, etc. I managed to find a workaround so I could do eservice, but couldn't actually upload anything. Restarting my computer fixed it, eventually.

I had an order confirmation from a shirt place....apparently squeaked Squeak screencapped the video and made a shirt after all. I hope it comes out okay, but...I've spent more on less either way. I got a notification a few days ago that Alanis released a new single, "Reckoning," and it's okay...but then Youtube suggested another single, "Reasons I Drink," and I fell in love. Chris, who I only ever knew by his FB name "Tiffany Haddish," messaged me on Instagram. He had an Adderall addiction, but has since gotten clean. We talked about addiction and about music - he associates Fiona with me, the same way Richard associates Kelly with me. I'm delighted. He's also a fan of Nikka Costa, and shared an artist called Jay Som with me. She's *very* 90's, and I'm gonna listen to more of her stuff....as soon as I'm done listening Reasons I Drink. Just a few minutes, I'm sure. At one point, he asked me if I felt like my addiction had to happen. I said for a long time that I was an addict looking for a substance, so...yeah, kinda.

I got an email from some foreign pharmacy, but I couldn't find anything that looked fun to do. I might buy Wellbutrin from them, though, since my doc stopped my prescription.

Julian had messaged me. He fucked a guy in his back yard, and apparently the nerves in his eyes are dying, and he'll be blind in 5 years. Genes, and there's nothing to be done about it. Jacob also messaged me, but after talking more, he's not going to come out. I hadn't realized 1) that he grew long hair and 2) he looks sort of like Julian. And Nicholas messaged me again, wanting to hook up. I was honest with him about being embarrassed about the state of my room. And I messaged Kenneth to hire him to organize it. He agreed to do it for $100, which is cheaper than I was expecting, but I have no idea how much it should cost. He's gonna come over tomorrow after work. Sebastian also messaged me, since he'd come on over my first Guybone scene (literally). I was very honest with him about my anxiety over shooting it, since Stephen is in such great shape. I also invited him to the Music Group, though he declined, and we got to talking about RPGs. He feel the same way I do about Rose from Legend of Dragoon, and also wants Meru's outfit. It brought to mind the Necrophim from Nightbane again, and I do still hope to write a story incorporating that philosophy.

I meant to download more porn and beat off, but since I was already listening to Reasons I Drink..I drank instead. Got snarky AF with a couple Trumpets, and fools supporting the gestapo. I also downloaded some new games. Apparently some company made a game based on Dragon Heroes, but not a shmup, just a more advanced version of the Arena. Mostly just made me miss the original, tbh. I did manage to find a fantasy shmup, though, and I played that a lot. Squeaked Squeak wanted to share the new Alanis song with *everyone,* and of course I started with FHA. I hadn't realized he had a quote from Fiona's "On The Bound" on his profile. Wonderful.