Aches To Take The Weight

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I woke up around 2:30, Tim had called me a couple times two hours prior, so I texted him but didn't hear back. Since I was up, I cleaned a little more, made sure to take my pills, and even another sleeping pill. I figured I don't need to get up in the morning, so I might as well not fuck up my sleep schedule.

Tim texted me in the morning, but I went back to sleep...only to wake up later when someone knocked on the door...and still went back to sleep. Then I heard the door open, and little paws on the ground. He had texted me last night to see if he could bring Pupple over, since the fireworks weren't as bad out here. He cooked up some soyrizo with a few produce items that hadn't quite gone bad yet. I had my usual cauldrons of coffee, but was still sleepy. He finally got around to listening to the acoustic version of "When Am I Gonna Lose You," and I shared with him the Season 3 Opening...Oh, Squeak. I kept downloading porn, cleaned more, including Houdini's cage, and Tim was going to take a shower, but fell asleep on my bed instead. I took Pupple out, both as a thank you to Tim for this past year, and to put off my drinking a little longer. Pupple, however, just pissed in the garden by the mailboxes and wanted to come back. Tim did shower, then took off around noon.

I ran out of things to download. Every model I was into, every kink I could think of I would be down to watch, even all the Behind The Scenes shots. My computer did freeze up once, because I'd had Firefox open too long, had too many tabs open, and too many items downloading at once. Moderation is not my strong suit. I took that opportunity to zip over to CVS for some numbing cream, while I was there, took a quick peak at their booze. CVS has always had good prices and great sales on booze. I imagine a lot of homeless alcoholics go there. I subscribed to the CVS membership. It'll be $5/month, starting next month, and I got $10 off today's purchase.

At home, I cooked up some tofu and added it to the leftover soyrizo, but had an extra half-shake and wasn't hungry. I noticed I hadn't received my text from Potmatess today, so I went to their website, and it was bassically the same deal as yesterday. B2G1F is pretty great on their *already* cheap vape cartridges, so I ordered 3 Heavy Hitters Northern Lights. I hadn't heard anything over an hour later, so I started drinking. I happened on a Tweet re: #freeBritney, and saw a few others I liked, so I followed. My first response to one of his Tweets got a reply of "Who tf are you?" His Tweet had gone somewhat viral, so the idea he would be surprised by a new Follower is insulting, and my condescension came out. Turns out he's a minor, but my security settings are such that he can't see anything Naughty anyway. He kept coming for me, I kept reading him. Even smiling makes my face ache.

Later in the evening, I was reading old (2016) journal entries, and got caught in a Boy & Bear loop, particularly Back Down The Black. It didn't seem quite like I remembered it differently...more acoustic. And I've been on both sides of what I think the song might be about. I shared it with the Music Group, bc I apparently hadn't shared them before, and of course offered to buy the album for anyone who wants it, but...crickets.