I Need To Study Music
Jun. 30th, 2020 02:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgalleryGetting up was *rough,* and it's largely only thanks to my alarm I didn't sleep through the morning. I actually did think it was the weekend again when I woke up, but given the alarm and all...Coffee fixed it, and of course it was hard for me to get up even knowing that in advance.
The morning was busy AF, between items that came in yesterday after work, hunting down then entering old and new NOAs, and nearly 160 eservice items. I was actually a couple (no, literally a couple) minutes late to the meeting, and Lynelle sent and email asking about me and "Ms. Friday." Thankfully, she was sitting next to me when I logged in, and got cries of enthusiasm from everyone. The afternoon calmed down some for me, though I still didn't manage to get to reviewing any claims.
Sean messaged me in the afternoon, and my brain immediately thought Jason had told him about my drug use. Not like I haven't been open about it on FB, but not a lot of folks know the details. I calmed down, though, and talked about my mental health and the struggles and progress there.
I've started leaving more comments on Youtube videos, and the different reactions and responses have been intriguing. I did find an acoustic version of "When Am I Gonna Lose You," and instead of watching Community, spent the night alternating between the original and the acoustic. His high note in the acoustic version is so much clearer, but the build in the original is better. I thought more about the video, and as I've mentioned, it hits me in much the same way Ghost Inside by Broken Bells does. Ghost is more dangerous because I feel like such a failure for not being able to help. This one....we've all been there, and I want to comfort her, but I know there's little to be done for someone during that terrible readjustment. The brain literally has to readjust to stop thinking of "me" as "we."
The morning was busy AF, between items that came in yesterday after work, hunting down then entering old and new NOAs, and nearly 160 eservice items. I was actually a couple (no, literally a couple) minutes late to the meeting, and Lynelle sent and email asking about me and "Ms. Friday." Thankfully, she was sitting next to me when I logged in, and got cries of enthusiasm from everyone. The afternoon calmed down some for me, though I still didn't manage to get to reviewing any claims.
Sean messaged me in the afternoon, and my brain immediately thought Jason had told him about my drug use. Not like I haven't been open about it on FB, but not a lot of folks know the details. I calmed down, though, and talked about my mental health and the struggles and progress there.
I've started leaving more comments on Youtube videos, and the different reactions and responses have been intriguing. I did find an acoustic version of "When Am I Gonna Lose You," and instead of watching Community, spent the night alternating between the original and the acoustic. His high note in the acoustic version is so much clearer, but the build in the original is better. I thought more about the video, and as I've mentioned, it hits me in much the same way Ghost Inside by Broken Bells does. Ghost is more dangerous because I feel like such a failure for not being able to help. This one....we've all been there, and I want to comfort her, but I know there's little to be done for someone during that terrible readjustment. The brain literally has to readjust to stop thinking of "me" as "we."
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