Deconstruction
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thepnutgalleryZipped over to the post office, but then the meds wouldn't fit in the box and they didn't have any flat rate packages that fit. Then the machine wouldn't read my card, then the lady in front of me tried to like...haggle or something. But I got them sent. I also saw a post from Mandy that she needed a ride from Bodhi to VCA for Max. I went a little crazy from the couple minutes delay before I left, screaming that he was going to die because of me....then spent an hour in the parking lot while Max got discharged. She's been sober for 3 weeks, while I have....not. But she kept it positive, and reminded me that as long as I'm not going back to G, it's progress. I (barely) managed to finish literally all of my work, though, from mail to claims, to tagging.
I found the weed pen I'd lost...I guess it must have been in pillowcase or something? My mom has been posting lots of Trump and Right Wing memes, including one blaming the victims of police brutality, because they're all criminals. Keeping things light, I asked about Breona Taylor, and she straight up refused to answer. I'm trying to address this nonsense without my fangs.
I cleaned up some on my lunch break, and should have cleaned more after work, but I drank instead. I tried to expand my musical selection, and listened to Daydream/Wetdream/Nightmare by Saint Motel. The latter half is quite good, and tickled my brain, but I couldn't quite place the melody. I thought maybe "Almost Home: Live On Soundcheck" by Moby, but I'm still not sure. Then I listened to Almost Home on repeat forever, and found myself listening to Halsey and Yungblud's cover of "I Will Follow You Into The Dark," and thinking of Wyatt. His struggles and death have taken on a deeper meaning for me, and I shared it. Brendun commented, cheerfully asking about Wyatt. I didn't feel comfortable talking about his death publicly, but I did message him.
Mandy messaged me again in the evening, wanting to take me out to dinner and/or draw me something as a thank you. Food has always been an issue for me, particularly when someone else is buying and I'm not working, but we'll either Dutch or I'll just buy her dinner, since she's been so giving with Max. As for the latter...I thought about it, and gave her the option of Tylendel, Catwoman, or Molly Grue. She hasn't read Magic's Pawn, and I always forget she's just as into The Last Unicorn as I am. That scene has also deeply resonated with her. As she put it: "It's the deconstruction of Myth and reality." That's sort of a larger theme throughout the book, really, and it helps me analyze it. She called it a night after that, and I remembered that I'm not very demonstrative, so I thanked her for helping me stay afloat, her Ina Garten "If you can't make your own serotonin, store bought is fine" meme, and her quote that our brains are set on hard mode.
I found the weed pen I'd lost...I guess it must have been in pillowcase or something? My mom has been posting lots of Trump and Right Wing memes, including one blaming the victims of police brutality, because they're all criminals. Keeping things light, I asked about Breona Taylor, and she straight up refused to answer. I'm trying to address this nonsense without my fangs.
I cleaned up some on my lunch break, and should have cleaned more after work, but I drank instead. I tried to expand my musical selection, and listened to Daydream/Wetdream/Nightmare by Saint Motel. The latter half is quite good, and tickled my brain, but I couldn't quite place the melody. I thought maybe "Almost Home: Live On Soundcheck" by Moby, but I'm still not sure. Then I listened to Almost Home on repeat forever, and found myself listening to Halsey and Yungblud's cover of "I Will Follow You Into The Dark," and thinking of Wyatt. His struggles and death have taken on a deeper meaning for me, and I shared it. Brendun commented, cheerfully asking about Wyatt. I didn't feel comfortable talking about his death publicly, but I did message him.
Mandy messaged me again in the evening, wanting to take me out to dinner and/or draw me something as a thank you. Food has always been an issue for me, particularly when someone else is buying and I'm not working, but we'll either Dutch or I'll just buy her dinner, since she's been so giving with Max. As for the latter...I thought about it, and gave her the option of Tylendel, Catwoman, or Molly Grue. She hasn't read Magic's Pawn, and I always forget she's just as into The Last Unicorn as I am. That scene has also deeply resonated with her. As she put it: "It's the deconstruction of Myth and reality." That's sort of a larger theme throughout the book, really, and it helps me analyze it. She called it a night after that, and I remembered that I'm not very demonstrative, so I thanked her for helping me stay afloat, her Ina Garten "If you can't make your own serotonin, store bought is fine" meme, and her quote that our brains are set on hard mode.
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