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I texted Julian in the morning, but he didn't get back to me until much later. I smoked some of the vape cartridges, drank a ton, sent a video of me jerking off to a fan, and watched Community. I also messaged Aimee about my Performance Wishlist. I need to pick 5, and this is where it gets tricky, because I'm going to start Lip Syncing in my living room, so I need to pick 5 songs that I would fuck up on my own. I'm thinking Give Me Love....and others. I asked for Tim's help choosing, but I was inexplicably Grumpy. And taking it out on Wrong People Online. Tim reminded me to put my fangs away, which is a note I've needed every now and again since I was a teenager.

In the afternoon, JJD referred me to a DM who's running games online. I had just been thinking of putting out a request for that! Timely! Also in the afternoon, Mitchell posted a video of sea otters on my page. It was adorable but....my brain is not nice to me with sea otters. Between learning a long time ago that adolescent males will rape and drown seal pups, and even female otters, and that video of the mother otter who goes insane when orcas eat her pups.....I at least managed to avoid re-watching that video. Instead I found a video of two pygmy goats named after Supreme Court Justices going to visit penguins.

When Julian did contact me, I was fairly tipsy and struggling to keep above the waves. But I told him all about my addiction, including the times I drove high, all my injuries, getting arrested, rehab,etc. Tim messaged me, irritated that I wouldn't hang up, and then pointed out that I don't actually have the power to help him how he needs.