Reflections

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Ordered some new edibles and cartridges in the morning. If I'd approached law school the way I'm going after getting high, I'd be a successful attorney right now. I didn't get as high as I was hoping.....I'm a little worried this might be characteristic of addiction. Matt had been talking about meth once, and like everyone else, his warnings against it sounded an awful lot like an endorsement. "Don't do this stuff, you'll stay up all night having the best sex ever while being super into music!" But he clarified that it's like that your first time...and then you spend the rest of your time using chasing that first time. A while ago I managed to get *really* stoned off an edible. Like....I kept thinking I was in someone else's apartment kind of high. I'm worried I'm going to be constantly chasing that level of high and never find it again. I guess even the pursuit of that is cheaper than using G was running me. It took far too much, of course, but somewhere between a few hundred mg of edibles and swapping between OG Masterpiece and Train Weck, I managed to get a decent high. Still not up where I was looking to get, but that's an addict for you. That level of high might simply be unattainable.