Squeak the Sage

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Felt a little better in the morning - YAY. But vision still fucked. Damn. I took Dayquil, drank water and tea all day. FHA messaged me in the afternoon, freaking out about something. He's on his way to getting his dream job - an artist for Disney - but his best friend and his boyfriend are having a hard time seeing it as anything but abandonment when they need him.

I stopped at the store on the way home, possibly to pick up some sunglasses. They were overpriced and the clerks at Ralph's gave me dirty looks and sent the security guard to stand at the exit and watch me as I left. I mean..okay.

I meant to just get some snacks and vegan mayo from TJ's, but coudln't make up my mind on what I was getting. A foreign woman walked up to me with a birthday card, but the inside of it was a plea for financial help. She needed formula for her kids. I'll buy you formula no problem. Oh, in that case, regular groceries. She basically seemed to grab stuff at random, and I kind of worried that she was maybe going to try to buy a bunch of stuff, then get a refund for it. Whatever, I've spent more on less. And it calmed down the workers and the security guard in the store, so there's that. I saw Bryan standing outside with a fully loaded backpack, so I'm imagining he's homeless again. Can't save them all. More importantly, can't save them *for* them, and certainly not in spite of them.

Realized when I got home that I'd forgotten to get pretty much everything I wanted to, but didn't have the energy to go back. Oh, well. I cleaned up the place, showered, and then FHA came over. I've apparently turned into a sage on interpersonal relationships in the last few years. His situation isn't as bad as it sounded earlier - Aimee and Joey aren't being completely self centered about it, but they're justifiably freaking out about no longer having him to support them.

I talked a little about my issues, but this really wasn't about me, just a good excuse to keep him up to date on my goings on. And eventually I turned on music, since he never visits the group. He was surprisingly into Odeza's "Across the room" and is going to sing it at Karaoke.