A Better Birthday - Panel

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I tried to catch up on the FB messages and texts and such but I couldn't get through all of them. The only awkward ones were the ones that had messaged me last year, and nothing since. Ah, well. That's FB for you. I put out feelers for throwing a party Sunday night, checking with Warren first, to make sure he would have the energy. People were down, I just needed to get Bryan's stuff out of my living room. I could move it into storage, but that would mean Tim would have to get his stuff out of my storage. *sigh* I did successfully plan to finally have dinner with Christina for Friday, so yay for that.

I realized the other thing making me upset about my birthday, other than Warren and not being able to see a bunch of friends for it. I'm 35 and still haven't accomplished any goals. I'm not on a career path, I'm not doing my non-profit full time. I don't want life to be what happens while I'm making other plans. I want to do those plans.

Towards that goal, I went to PB to speak as part of a panel of sex workers. Liat had given my name to the organizer. I'd come close to canceling, but the phone conference had already had several people drop out. Zipped home from work, changed into Big Boy clothes, headed out to PB. The panel was awesome. There were 3 other femme presenting people on the panel, though two used They/Them pronouns. I'm hyper aware that I'm male in these situations, and males have a tendency to dominate any discussion or group they're part of, so I tried really hard to give the other first shot at speaking. It was incredibly informative, and I learned a lot about the unconscious myths people hold about sex work. I also learned a lot about the language to use to explain the difference between sex trafficking and sex work to people. And when they asked everyone the "one thing" they wanted people to learn from the group, I got my star moment by saying "my name."


Warren messaged me about some Ginger he saw on TV, introduced him as his boyfriend. I know he was joking, but I've been dating him 3 months and we're not there yet. He also sent me some meme about plotting to get guys to sleep with you, from the account "unemployedgay," so I asked if that was his handle.

Austin, the guy from Rich's a while ago who'd jerked off a bunch before coming to trick at my place, hit me up. He's back in Boston now, wants to move back, and wants to stay with me for a while when he does. That's gonna take some thought, because he seems like a mess.