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thepnutgalleryTuesday - Feeling randy at work. I hadn't cum since Friday, so this is kind of understandable. Ken felt hungover at work, and I felt bad about being randy while he was sick. Ate a bit much after work, but didn't eat much at game. Was cranky when game started, but ended up having a fantastic time - Wyatt rocks my DM-ing world, and we're probably going to Monster Massive. Picked up Dallas from the airport after. Got home and became Snuggle-Monster in between trips to the bathroom - happens when you drink 4 liters of diet cola.
Wednesday- Ken strangely reticent at work. Spent most of the day trying to cheer him up, lame jokes and the like. Around 2pm I get the question: "This might sound weird, and I'm not sure where it's coming from, but are you happy with us?"
WTF.
In my head, of course, I'm rallying the troops, preparing for him to break up with me - where I would move, the awkwardness of explaining things to my friends. Even though I've never been all Vanessa Huxtable/He's The One/This Is True Love, I would feel an unspoken "What happened to True Love, huh?"…..occurs to me now that that's my papa's voice. Man, he sure is jaded. Trip to Henry's after work for TVP, but Tofurkey slices (much better for you than their sausages) and tofu were on sale, so I picked some of them up, too- experienced vertigo while waiting in line. Weird. Left jacket at work. Still had 2 cocktails before Ken got home. Went for a walk in Balboa park, talking around the elephant in the park, so to speak. Finally comes out that he's been talking with April - something about my LJ...don't really remember how he got to me being happy from that. I've pressed him on it further, and there's still nothing. I think, and I really have no basis for this, that April read it, and interpreted things the wrong way. What do you all think - do I sound unhappy? End result is that my LJ, at least with regards to posts that mention Ken, are Friends Locked. Went to Martini's and Mo's with Dallas and his friend Monica. Opted not to eat, and very happy I did. Was kind of hoping for sex, but Ken ended up with a Tummy Ache, so nothing doing.
Thursday - Brilliant Idea for community access show involving Aimee - Suburban Vegan, Secretly Vegan, Vegan for the Masses, Easy Vegan, Vegan for Carnivores - something that plays on her use of fairly normal ingredients, and that she herself is not vegan. I'm hungry. Ken didn't e-mail most of the day - slightly freaked by this, but it turns out he was just really really busy. Thought about making dinner for Ken, but I just know that if I had tried, he'd have had some other plans. Had a couple of drinks before he got home instead. He couldn't tell, though, until it came up in conversation later in the evening. We looked at (over-priced) condos, and were going to go for rolled tacos, but decided on dinner at home instead. Made a fairly standard, if extremely tasty dinner. Veggies and lemon pepper is all you need. We layed down together, and he napped. I wanted to, but ended up laying there with a raging hard-on instead. Finally made out/had sex when he woke up. It was really good, and I shot my collar bone - happens when it's been almost a week. He wanted ice cream and video games when we finished, so he went for ice cream and I went to snag video games. Found some, not others. Had a chat about my belongings, and the belongings that used to be mutually ours. Got home and introduced Ken to Diablo II, better known by it's street name, Crack. Went to bed a little late, ate a bit much before doing so, but stayed just this side of too much. Not bad, not bad. Super looking forward to the weekend.
Wednesday- Ken strangely reticent at work. Spent most of the day trying to cheer him up, lame jokes and the like. Around 2pm I get the question: "This might sound weird, and I'm not sure where it's coming from, but are you happy with us?"
WTF.
In my head, of course, I'm rallying the troops, preparing for him to break up with me - where I would move, the awkwardness of explaining things to my friends. Even though I've never been all Vanessa Huxtable/He's The One/This Is True Love, I would feel an unspoken "What happened to True Love, huh?"…..occurs to me now that that's my papa's voice. Man, he sure is jaded. Trip to Henry's after work for TVP, but Tofurkey slices (much better for you than their sausages) and tofu were on sale, so I picked some of them up, too- experienced vertigo while waiting in line. Weird. Left jacket at work. Still had 2 cocktails before Ken got home. Went for a walk in Balboa park, talking around the elephant in the park, so to speak. Finally comes out that he's been talking with April - something about my LJ...don't really remember how he got to me being happy from that. I've pressed him on it further, and there's still nothing. I think, and I really have no basis for this, that April read it, and interpreted things the wrong way. What do you all think - do I sound unhappy? End result is that my LJ, at least with regards to posts that mention Ken, are Friends Locked. Went to Martini's and Mo's with Dallas and his friend Monica. Opted not to eat, and very happy I did. Was kind of hoping for sex, but Ken ended up with a Tummy Ache, so nothing doing.
Thursday - Brilliant Idea for community access show involving Aimee - Suburban Vegan, Secretly Vegan, Vegan for the Masses, Easy Vegan, Vegan for Carnivores - something that plays on her use of fairly normal ingredients, and that she herself is not vegan. I'm hungry. Ken didn't e-mail most of the day - slightly freaked by this, but it turns out he was just really really busy. Thought about making dinner for Ken, but I just know that if I had tried, he'd have had some other plans. Had a couple of drinks before he got home instead. He couldn't tell, though, until it came up in conversation later in the evening. We looked at (over-priced) condos, and were going to go for rolled tacos, but decided on dinner at home instead. Made a fairly standard, if extremely tasty dinner. Veggies and lemon pepper is all you need. We layed down together, and he napped. I wanted to, but ended up laying there with a raging hard-on instead. Finally made out/had sex when he woke up. It was really good, and I shot my collar bone - happens when it's been almost a week. He wanted ice cream and video games when we finished, so he went for ice cream and I went to snag video games. Found some, not others. Had a chat about my belongings, and the belongings that used to be mutually ours. Got home and introduced Ken to Diablo II, better known by it's street name, Crack. Went to bed a little late, ate a bit much before doing so, but stayed just this side of too much. Not bad, not bad. Super looking forward to the weekend.
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I got nuttin' but love for you baby!
Date: 2007-09-07 11:44 pm (UTC)When reading your livejournal enteries the relationship you have with Ken seems distructive and very volatile. If you go back and read some of your entieries from the beginning of your relationship forward someone that doesn't know how you two are together or someone that doesn't know you that well would assume you do not complement eachother well. You seem to post about a fight everyother weekend and you are posting sad times more than happytimes. So I guess yes, from your journal alone you seem to be in an unhappy relationship.
Re: I got nuttin' but love for you baby!
Date: 2007-09-08 03:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-09-08 01:06 am (UTC)Yes on Mondo Gelato. I think I'm gonna have Thursday & Friday off next week, if either of those work for you. Xx
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Date: 2007-09-08 03:20 am (UTC)