Do Not Pass Go, Do Not Collect $200

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Having not slept at all during the night, I tried to get some sleep during the day. Mildly successful. I was touched to be getting so many queries about whether I passed; even if they didn't remember the time, at least they thought of me, and knew it was today. Tim came over in the afternoon, we went grocery shopping, he bought me flowers. We also opened a bottle of wine, in early celebration, or to help damp down the disappointment. Neither of us had eaten; Tim because he was anticipating Loving Hut, me because my stomach was not having it.

6pm finally rolled around, I put in my info, and it did not match any names on the pass list. Okay. Went to dinner with Nina, who did pass, and her bf. In discussion with them, I mentioned that I can't think of anything to have done differently on the exam, anything to have done different while studying. I'll find out when I get my exam back. Texted Steve Meth, who also didn't pass. I only managed to eat half my meal. Nina was going out to Wine Steals with Rachel MacCratic, who maybe passed? I dunno. I was gonna go, but opted to go home and chat with Tim more.

He spent the night. I had a hard time sleeping, both because I kept having to get up and go to the bathroom, and because I wanted to be alone. I'm not really sure if this was just the Bar, or if it's gone for me. I took a sleeping pill and a couple shots of vodka and finally managed to zonk some.

Comments

[rhps-mom.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, that sucks. So what happens now?

[npgmaverick.livejournal.com]

At the very least, the torture of waiting is over. Now, U move on 2 the next step. In any event, as I told U privately, I cannot recall ever being more proud of U.