I Have Tough Nipples
Apr. 9th, 2012 12:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgalleryRoommate needed to go get tested, so I took him down to Rosecrans, then got some groceries at Big Lots. Forgot my damn headphones again. Got through my workout anyway. Tim texted half-way through, wanting to come over, so I told him where the spare key was.
He was typing on my laptop when I got home, responding to someone on the USD website. He mostly complained a lot. He didn't like my laptop, it was too hot in my room, I don't have any food in the house. I started getting cranky. Michael Perl came over, I guess just to hang out, and eventually I had to tell him to go because Norman was coming over.
Tim was going to the rehearsal for the Drag Show at USD, but wanted to get together for dinner after, around 7; that got pushed back to 8, then 9. Loving Hut closes at 9, but we snuck in just before the deadline. I thought it kind of odd that he ordered so much, given the financial difficulties he's facing, but then Tootie paid for dinner, as I think he was expecting.
We went for coffee after, talking about tricks goneby. Somehow Will's name came up as I was saying goodbye to Tim, he started saying that it had been forever since they'd talked, but seemed to remember something and didn't want to say exactly when they'd last spoke.
It was suddenly August again. I was reading his messages, seeing his car, watching him walk away from Will's house. Except in August I was hurt, stunned, empty. Now I just wanted to light things on fire.
Tim entreated me to not think about it, stating that I had gotten the better end of that bargain. I guess I was still a little stunned, because I didn't even call him on it. Will got to fuck my boyfriend behind my back. Tim got to fuck my friend behind my back. They still get to fuck each other, semi-behind my back. I get impotent rage, and to rather awkwardly still be in love with this asshat.
I've had multiple rebound guys at this point. I shouldn't still be nursing a grudge over this. But I am, I might always be, and I'm not sure I'd choose to get over it if I could.
He was typing on my laptop when I got home, responding to someone on the USD website. He mostly complained a lot. He didn't like my laptop, it was too hot in my room, I don't have any food in the house. I started getting cranky. Michael Perl came over, I guess just to hang out, and eventually I had to tell him to go because Norman was coming over.
Tim was going to the rehearsal for the Drag Show at USD, but wanted to get together for dinner after, around 7; that got pushed back to 8, then 9. Loving Hut closes at 9, but we snuck in just before the deadline. I thought it kind of odd that he ordered so much, given the financial difficulties he's facing, but then Tootie paid for dinner, as I think he was expecting.
We went for coffee after, talking about tricks goneby. Somehow Will's name came up as I was saying goodbye to Tim, he started saying that it had been forever since they'd talked, but seemed to remember something and didn't want to say exactly when they'd last spoke.
It was suddenly August again. I was reading his messages, seeing his car, watching him walk away from Will's house. Except in August I was hurt, stunned, empty. Now I just wanted to light things on fire.
Tim entreated me to not think about it, stating that I had gotten the better end of that bargain. I guess I was still a little stunned, because I didn't even call him on it. Will got to fuck my boyfriend behind my back. Tim got to fuck my friend behind my back. They still get to fuck each other, semi-behind my back. I get impotent rage, and to rather awkwardly still be in love with this asshat.
I've had multiple rebound guys at this point. I shouldn't still be nursing a grudge over this. But I am, I might always be, and I'm not sure I'd choose to get over it if I could.
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