Circles

I was *exhausted* at work, but I tunneled through. Fortunately it was a lighter day, and my foot felt much better.

I always tell myself that all I need to do is go to the gym, and if I'm not feeling it after 5 min, I can go home. Time was, I'd get there, hear a good song, and have tons of energy. This is true less and less these days. So while I certainly don't get mad at myself if I do exactly that, I more often tell myself 5 more min, one more machine, etc. And before you know it I end up like yesterday, with a full body workout and 450 calories I burned.

I got another nose bleed. This is at least the second one post-shower after an exhausted workout, and something like my 4th or 5th total in the last 30 days.

Julian had asked to come over, so I stopped home and picked up the place before picking him up. He was already several beers in, and kept dropping subtle (for him) and not so subtle (even for him) hints about us getting back together. I was much too tired to re-direct, so I just ignored most of it. He didn't want to hear about Bryan, asked if I'd fucked Tony and a host of other men. On the one hand, I understand. I still sometimes see red when thinking of Will or Dewey. On the other hand, I try to take charge of my emotions, whether by talking myself down or just not mentioning them. I made us dinner, but in spite of an exhausting day and good workout, couldn't eat more than a couple bites. Julian ate two bowls.

Tim came by with Pupple later, Julian passed out next to me on the couch, I went to bed. Julian wanted sexy times, but I sweat a lot at night, so that didn't happen.