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Chatted briefly with Daniel Popp in the morning. There was some suggestion he might come by, but going to the gym was more important than the possibility of all that. I had asked him to text me, he messaged that I should hit him up when I got back. He wasn't online, so I texted him, and he had already jacked off or found a trick. I've already got a notch next to Daniel's name, my reasons for wanting a repeat are less than noble, and I'm not even sure I want it anymore, so maybe that wasn't a bad thing.

I was supposed to hook up with a boy in the afternoon. We'd hooked up twice before. First time was probably the best blindfolded time I've had. Second was just okay. He's been very persistent, so I agreed to see him again over the weekend for his birthday, but didn't get around to it. Today, he took almost 2 hours from his first message and my saying "yes, come over now" to finally get there. Fucking ridiculous. His idea of dirty talk was "give me your toxic hole" and to make matters worse, I came. While this slug* was fucking me. So disgusted.

Wyatt came over, we started drinking. Tim came by, but was hoping to find me alone. Neighbor Dennis also stopped by, and we're to chat at a later point. Tim stuck around longer than I thought he would, Wyatt told a very personal story, and I was touched to see Tim tearing up.

I played them both the lyrics version of "In This Shirt." Tim agreed it was absolutely beautiful, and is going to play it for his poetry class. There was a brief conversation about the night before - I mentioned seeing him online, and hooking up with my awful awful trick. After he left, I stopped caring how much I was drinking, but also resisted the urge to log in and see if he was online.

Also after Tim left, Adam Tammaro came over and rolled some weed to smoke in my dining room. Roommate came home. We've never chatted about our friends or similar, but I took the boys to my room out of consideration anyway. I don't recall much of the conversation we had, but I seem to recall a lot of smiles. I realized it was 3am before long, so sent them home, with Adam giving Wyatt a ride home.



* = That might be an unfair description, but I'm not sure if it's to him or to slugs.