I Met A Boy

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I suppose that title isn't saying too much, since I meet boys all the time, but this boy has a couple special things going for him. 1) I felt with him like I felt with Ken in the first couple weeks we were seeing each other. More on that in a minute. 2) I invited him to stay the night. I have never, as long as I can remember, invited anyone to stay the night. I've woken up from a drunken stupor with guys in my bed, but that is not anywhere near the same as inviting them to spend the night. Small difference, but I've also spent the night in a VERY few other men's beds, which is still not inviting them to spend the night in mine.
So, yeah, the chemistry with this guy was amazing, and I'm sort of wondering why he's not here again right now. But even as I'm thinking "oh my wow I'm so happy right now", I'm also freaking out. Obviously, any comparison to Ken is going to raise GIANT hook-flailing warning flags, but I'm also thinking about Chris, feeling I owe him some sort of loyalty, and sort of wishing he'd get in a relationship already so I could put him squarely in the Friend Box and move on. For that matter, I'm also remembering every guy I've ever fallen for, or thought I'd fallen for, and feeling similar, if reduced amounts of guilt towards them.
Finally, I'm thinking of me, how I've got plans to travel a bunch of places this year, and meet boys from all of those places, and how if I fall for someone, that's going to put a real damper on those plans.

I'm not terribly worried - after I made him breakfast this morning and sent him on his way, I had another couple gents over, but I did think about him all day.