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thepnutgalleryI've actually been posting quite a bit (for me) lately, but they've all been private. This is both to spare everyone my poorly written, yet remarkably verbose accounts of everything, and because things are very up in the air right now. I've been spending lots of time with Ken, which has been nice, and lots of time thinking about my near future.
Ken and I are not officially anything, which has it's ups and downs. I'm still at a place where any kind of commitment is too much, and I'm well aware of how fickle I can be when it comes to these things. Should I have a sudden, but lasting, change of heart regarding Ken, it's much easier to extricate oneself if things are not official. On the other hand, without constant reassurance, I tend to start thinking that he may have had a change of heart. For his part, Ken has done things about as perfectly as can be; neither clingy nor distant, or perhaps both, but at exactly the right times. As Anthony says, he has played things very smart.
Speaking of Anthony, I'm sure all of you are aware that he, Aimee, and Durwood are in New York right now, competing (and I'm sure kicking ass) in the World Series of Pop Culture. This has left me with the house, which has been nice. It's been a rare thing for me to be home lately, and an even rarer thing for me to be home alone for any extended period of time.
I got MASSIVELY sick yesterday- so sick that I had to call in to work, and it got worse before it got better. Didn't help things that I still had to work the desk shift at APA. By the time I went to sleep last night, it was all I could do to curl up in a fetal position. I'm mostly better today, although it's lingering. It was nice, though to have the whole house to myself in which to be sick. Kind of a glimpse into what it might be like to live alone. It was not so nice to have to keep getting things for myself. Little things, like turning off a light, or getting an extra blanket, that anyone at all nearby could have done. It's small that I got up and did them myself, but I rather like doing what needs to be done in spite of physical discomfort.
Ken and I are not officially anything, which has it's ups and downs. I'm still at a place where any kind of commitment is too much, and I'm well aware of how fickle I can be when it comes to these things. Should I have a sudden, but lasting, change of heart regarding Ken, it's much easier to extricate oneself if things are not official. On the other hand, without constant reassurance, I tend to start thinking that he may have had a change of heart. For his part, Ken has done things about as perfectly as can be; neither clingy nor distant, or perhaps both, but at exactly the right times. As Anthony says, he has played things very smart.
Speaking of Anthony, I'm sure all of you are aware that he, Aimee, and Durwood are in New York right now, competing (and I'm sure kicking ass) in the World Series of Pop Culture. This has left me with the house, which has been nice. It's been a rare thing for me to be home lately, and an even rarer thing for me to be home alone for any extended period of time.
I got MASSIVELY sick yesterday- so sick that I had to call in to work, and it got worse before it got better. Didn't help things that I still had to work the desk shift at APA. By the time I went to sleep last night, it was all I could do to curl up in a fetal position. I'm mostly better today, although it's lingering. It was nice, though to have the whole house to myself in which to be sick. Kind of a glimpse into what it might be like to live alone. It was not so nice to have to keep getting things for myself. Little things, like turning off a light, or getting an extra blanket, that anyone at all nearby could have done. It's small that I got up and did them myself, but I rather like doing what needs to be done in spite of physical discomfort.
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Date: 2007-03-23 03:45 pm (UTC)