Suspect Halo

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Waking up next to Lady Miss Friday was enough of a motivator to get me to stay in bed instead of hop over for booze. Also, I felt like I'd want to get anything I'd be running out of soon to consolidate trips, but it was definitely too early to start a pre-list, then try to write down the pre-list, then forget things on the list, and then forget the list itself. Still got up and into work in time, snagged those docs for the Benoit, and checked through my work throughout the day. Still didn't finish everything, but I'm fine with it. And the laundry place messaged me back about putting in the apps! I made sure to keep the focus on the mutual convenience when they went into Sales Mode about upgrades. It's about mutually beneficial efficiency, thankyouverymuch. Just happens to particularly benefit me.

I checked the DMV website, but it just said I was done, and completed registrations take about 2 weeks to get there. It's been two weeks, so I guess I'll call next week. Since I keep forgetting things I need to do or having them pop up repeatedly when I've already done them, I started a physical To-Do List, and checked off the things I'd already done today. Just the act of making the liststarts you down the hill of Doin' Stuff, so it's a lot easier to Do Stuff once you've Done some Stuff. To say nothing of those times I use the excuse of indecision to drink instead. JJD notified me that Steam was having a sale on FFVII, and then pointed out they also had Heroes of Might & Magic. He was going to buy them for me (I'm not even sure what he's thanking me for anymore), but I have a really hard time accepting things, so I just told him I'd already bought them. And then bought them. Happy with FFVII, I was going to buy Heroes, too, but they didn't have the DLC, so I bought it on Gog instead.

Charlie messaged me again, and I'd put his video at the top of my list. Really just didn't want it hanging over my head anymore. Fucking responsibilities and expectations. Looked back over his notes of what he wanted, turned on the light, and measured out exactly 10 minutes. Even went another minute over, just so he'd be happy. I avoided cumming, thinking I might spend the night drinking and beating off, but I at least remembered to review the docs first. I think I overthought the assignment, tbh, because it looked like it was just a remand that he took over 6 months to get around to appealing. I browsed through futons but couldn't find the Perfect one, light enough to move, heavy enough to fuck on. I also looked into crowdfunding, and I'm deciding if I want to make a specific fund to get us up and running then swap to one specific to nonprofits, or go under the umbrella of another nonprofit. Technically, I could do it with SWoRN, since it's still lingering, but it would be shady as fuck to pump its last gasps for the air.

When I thought about hopping over to the store...I don't know. I was trying to sort out my feelings on booze, but then I was dangerously proud of myself. Like, I was so happy that I was taking steps forward - making lists, extra credit at work, fan videos, promising research into the religion.....and man, if only I had that Magic Drug. But maybe, since I'm doing so well, I could handle GHB now. Just a little and be happy with that. Just one sammich. The problem is that sammiches made me vomit and/or obese, where GHB would take everything, and make sure to take my furkids first. Well, most prominently anyway. I took two Seroquel and put off the discussion until later.

Comments

[npgmaverick]

Just a little and be happy with that.

If you were able to do that, you wouldn't be where you're at right now. Never forget that. You chose right.