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Up at my usual time and no hangover, but the end of the night was a blur. According to my phone records I talked for an hour and a half with my mom. Cool? Julian had also messaged me, but I put off responding until I left to get my car smogged. I knew I needed to and didn't want to get trapped on the phone.

Tim called me later but didn't ask me to come down. We talked about the philosophy of Symbism. My pessimism and depression is very apparent when I talk about it, and I mostly just need to focus on the brighter sides of it. All of existence is like some Saw trap, but I should emphasize the solution (altruism), and not the problem. He also tried to put a positive spin on domestication. Dogs became Man's Best Friend because they'd have largely died off otherwise. Okay, maybe that was a pessimistic spin on his spin.

I drank, smoked, and took the whole 1k mg edibles they gave me with my last purchase. It was interesting because as Numb as I got, I still wanted more. I felt like I was circling the point I got to when G worked for me, but that situation felt very moth + flame. I guess that's not surprising. Beat off for a few hours before crashing.