Black & White
Jul. 10th, 2020 04:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgalleryAnother wonderfully productive day. Some melody kept tickling my brain all morning, much like Annie Lennox's verse in "Why" did yesterday. I finally pounced on "Back Down the Black,"....the same song I've been listening to for days now. Oh, Squeak.
I thought a lot about the spare G, but playing the tape bassically lights it all on fire. Instead, I smoked, drank, and took the 500 mg edible that came for free with my last order. I got pretty blissfully loopy. I read about a company putting out a Shatter Vape Cartridge, but on further investigation, not only does no one carry them, they're not as strong as the vape carts I've been at.
I also didn't get around to making a new jerk vid, so I didn't post one, either. I've got all weekend. I'll get there. I stumbled on a "new" song by Iron & Wine, called "The Trapeze Swinger." I spent the rest of the night swapping back and forth between that and "Back Down The Black," and something about the melody or lyrics in "Trapeze Swinger" also brought to mind "I Will Follow You Into The Dark."
In the evening, a Friend hit me up because he recalled seeing something about mental health on my Wall, and wanted to check in. I am, as always, very open about everything. We talked about depression despite meds, the difficulty in getting a therapist, and in making progress with a therapist. We're both bad at therapy, which actually made me feel a little less shitty about being bad at therapy. I hadn't actually realized I had clinical Severe Depression until I saw it on paper.
I thought a lot about the spare G, but playing the tape bassically lights it all on fire. Instead, I smoked, drank, and took the 500 mg edible that came for free with my last order. I got pretty blissfully loopy. I read about a company putting out a Shatter Vape Cartridge, but on further investigation, not only does no one carry them, they're not as strong as the vape carts I've been at.
I also didn't get around to making a new jerk vid, so I didn't post one, either. I've got all weekend. I'll get there. I stumbled on a "new" song by Iron & Wine, called "The Trapeze Swinger." I spent the rest of the night swapping back and forth between that and "Back Down The Black," and something about the melody or lyrics in "Trapeze Swinger" also brought to mind "I Will Follow You Into The Dark."
In the evening, a Friend hit me up because he recalled seeing something about mental health on my Wall, and wanted to check in. I am, as always, very open about everything. We talked about depression despite meds, the difficulty in getting a therapist, and in making progress with a therapist. We're both bad at therapy, which actually made me feel a little less shitty about being bad at therapy. I hadn't actually realized I had clinical Severe Depression until I saw it on paper.
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