Breaking Up, Part 324,876,900.5
Sep. 3rd, 2012 06:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thepnutgalleryWrote my rent check, hit the gym. The place was packed, so my workout was brief. Tim had invited me to a BBQ at Balboa Park with Chad and Jesse at noon, but had some errands to run, so was going to text me when he was on his way. I hit the gym, and got a text from him around 12:30 wondering where I was. I finished my workout, picked up Big Eric and headed over. Tim had left the BBQ to run the aforementioned errands, but was back before too long. I also met an older Akida pup named Duke. Collen wanted to know where I was for the pool party they had on Sunday - I hadn't heard about it. We were supposed to be having a pool party at Leeper's but he had texted in the morning moving it to "sometime after dinner." I figured this really meant he was on a bender.
We all went back to Big Eric's for a bbq - I invited Dan from Scruff, but explained that since my ex was there, it would be weird for me to be flirty in front of him. Tim asked if he could invite Antione. Of course! Matt Bradford, Nikki, Leo, and Justin Fitzgerald showed up, Big Eric tried to get the music to play through all the rooms. Unfortunately, because there was a delay in the signal, as well as a distance for the sound to reach us from various rooms, it sounded like the beat was off. Way off. Off enough that even I could tell, and as happy as I was to have my music playing, I wasn't about to have it butchered like that. Big Eric's place is certainly small enough that we don't need music playing in both the kitchen and the living room, anyway.
After a while, a tipsy Tim pulled me aside to ask if he could bring a friend. Just a friend, but they had slept together before, and he knows how jealous I get so he wanted to ask. I asked if this was a date; No, no, no! A thousand times no!........
The guy, it turns out, was Jeremy, the messy bottom from the 4 way I had a few months back with Matt & Victor. The two of them were all coupley on the couch all night, nuzzling and whatnot. My jealousy/negative emotions are mine to deal with, so I spent most of the night chatting in the kitchen. I did pop in briefly to fix the music, tell a delightful anecdote here and there, and pretend my blood wasn't boiling over through my eyes.
Eventually, Tim and Jeremy got up to leave.
Together.
That thought was echoing louder and louder in my head, so I declined to say goodbye, and removed Jeremy's hand when he came in to hug me. I don't think I even saw Tim leave, though that might have just been the haze of red obscuring my vision. I got a text from him shortly thereafter, stating that he couldn't take my jealousy anymore, and is removing himself from my life. I told him to have a nice life, and he went on again about how he wished it hadn't come to this. I didn't respond. I deleted his texts and his number from my phone, and from FB.
I didn't stay at the party much longer after that. I went home and fixed drunk food, but couldn't bring myself to eat.
We all went back to Big Eric's for a bbq - I invited Dan from Scruff, but explained that since my ex was there, it would be weird for me to be flirty in front of him. Tim asked if he could invite Antione. Of course! Matt Bradford, Nikki, Leo, and Justin Fitzgerald showed up, Big Eric tried to get the music to play through all the rooms. Unfortunately, because there was a delay in the signal, as well as a distance for the sound to reach us from various rooms, it sounded like the beat was off. Way off. Off enough that even I could tell, and as happy as I was to have my music playing, I wasn't about to have it butchered like that. Big Eric's place is certainly small enough that we don't need music playing in both the kitchen and the living room, anyway.
After a while, a tipsy Tim pulled me aside to ask if he could bring a friend. Just a friend, but they had slept together before, and he knows how jealous I get so he wanted to ask. I asked if this was a date; No, no, no! A thousand times no!........
The guy, it turns out, was Jeremy, the messy bottom from the 4 way I had a few months back with Matt & Victor. The two of them were all coupley on the couch all night, nuzzling and whatnot. My jealousy/negative emotions are mine to deal with, so I spent most of the night chatting in the kitchen. I did pop in briefly to fix the music, tell a delightful anecdote here and there, and pretend my blood wasn't boiling over through my eyes.
Eventually, Tim and Jeremy got up to leave.
Together.
That thought was echoing louder and louder in my head, so I declined to say goodbye, and removed Jeremy's hand when he came in to hug me. I don't think I even saw Tim leave, though that might have just been the haze of red obscuring my vision. I got a text from him shortly thereafter, stating that he couldn't take my jealousy anymore, and is removing himself from my life. I told him to have a nice life, and he went on again about how he wished it hadn't come to this. I didn't respond. I deleted his texts and his number from my phone, and from FB.
I didn't stay at the party much longer after that. I went home and fixed drunk food, but couldn't bring myself to eat.
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