thepnutgallery | Tim As Phone Booth (Reply)

I broke things off with Tim about two weeks ago, as some of the things I thought would be an issue came to pass. I thought I was going to take it hard, and it seems I underestimated that. My phone was stolen the same night, and maybe the lack of social contact was part of that. He started his profile again immediately, where I didn't log on for two weeks. Finally decided to get back on the horse, so to speak, on Friday, and the second I logged in I got a text from him. We ended up meeting that night, flip fucked all night long, and went to breakfast the next morning. I was pretty proud of myself, that I maintained that a relationship was a bad idea, and hoped we could be friends from here on out. Sunday we got together at The Hole, him asking me to stay even after my ride left because he was running late. In spite of the above, we were very physically affectionate, made plans to go to Pecs after and pick up some hot daddies to share. At one point, he got up to piss, and didn't come back for about 15 min. I noticed him texting after that, and at the end of the night he got up to piss again, but stopped on the way to make out with the guy he had been texting, apparently making plans to take the guy home after Pecs.
We're friends, and maybe fuck buddies now, so I don't expect him to stay celibate, but I do expect anyone, even a random trick I pick up at a bar to not make simultaneous plans with someone else, to not sneak off to make out with them. Perhaps this is unreasonable. Perhaps I have a more dismal view of it than is warranted: Tim says he was trying to protect me from having to face that he was making plans with the guy....I don't know how much that can be the case, since he also shared with me when he got there that he dp'd a guy the night before.

We discussed things back at my place, and this time at my behest, he spent the night again. I don't like that, in spite of both of us recognizing that things would end disastrously, I seem to be the one not only who has to say "No" but to also be the one taking significant damage from the fallout. I don't know what level of contact I can maintain with him without fucking myself up.

On a positive but unrelated note, I got a paid internship doing the Franchise Documents for an art gallery. The pay is barely above minimum, but it's steady, and will make excellent experience to obtain my next job. It's taking up most of my time that I'm not in school, but being busy is good for me right now.