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Friday August 7 - Had a lot of trouble getting going. Made and drank some coffee, but then just laid on the bed while I waited for it to kick in. The old apathy came on while I was laying there with Cisco, and I thought about taking a bunch of sleeping pills. Might need to talk to my doctor about that, because this is ridiculous. Eventually, the coffee kicked in, I got up, headed down to work to pick up the new BK packet, then over to Pierre's for study. I was kind of heartened and kind of not. On the one hand, I know what we're talking about when I have my notes in front of me. On the other, I despair of ever knowing this stuff well enough to pass the course. Art called a couple times while I was there, and I ended up going to his office instead of to lunch with Anthony. Didn't get very much done, but did serve as a witness for him on one of his EP clients, and talked to that same about culture and the internet. Got home a little after Ken, tried to talk to him about the evening. No plans for dinner, no opinion on whether I should eat with Anthony or wait and have dinner with him. Asked him to call when he was finished, and he responded that he doesn't usually, but he could if I wanted him to. Am I even speaking? I could have sworn I just said that I did want him to. Picked Anthony up for dinner – Mandarin Dynasty, which was super yum. Talked about his time at Vulcan, which was a little anti-climactic. He might get back together with Derrick. I ate most of my Sesame “Chicken”, gave some to Anthony, and had no rice. Ken was making dinner when I got home – Bran dough w/ tomatoes over pasta. Kenny came by, and they chatted. Ken left the excess bran dough in the pan, and I ended up eating it, of course. Ken made a work out mix for Jack, which was mostly songs I loved. Also went for a last minute jog with Cisco. We were going to go over to Rich's, but Ken tapped out at the last minute. Frustrated as I was, I was glad that we had the talk we did. He apologized for being a fuddy-dud, I apologized for getting frustrated. Explained that I recognize that it's not his fault I don't like going out without him, that I like doing things WITH him, etc.