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thepnutgallery) wrote2019-03-24 03:38 pm
thepnutgallery) wrote2019-03-24 03:38 pm
Brunch, Beatz, Polar Bears
I managed to sleep through the night, which is stellar. Woke up in time to give Lady Miss Friday some affection and a wake up call to Justin. I should maybe have cleaned up in case he wanted to come inside, but I didn't even know where to start, and didn't want to set myself up for disappointment. Facebook Memories told me that 4 years ago I met Splashy the Sea Lion, so I shared the post.
We got to the brunch a little more than 30 min after start time, so of course they were still setting up. The boys have such an eclectic group of friends. I stayed with Justin for most of the morning, but when he wandered off, I didn't follow. A bunch of people loved my Hufflepup shirt, and I got a whole table into conversing about their fur babies and showing pics. It was great. Towards the end of the party, I ended up talking with a guy named Ben about music, and he listened to a bunch on my phone. Turns out he just joined the Chorus, though of course I'm not dancing this season, so I won't get to see him again until the Cher show.
Justin couldn't take any more social interaction by the early afternoon, so we left. He offered to just have me take him back to his car, but I was ready to leave as well. I offered to take us to The Hole, but he asked for a rain check. He hopped in his car without coming inside when we got back, so yay for not being disappointed.
Finally alone, I finished hooking up my computer. I have no way of knowing what happened to Splashy, but decided to placate myself by looking up videos of happy sea lions. Among the videos returned were several of starving polar bears attacking herds of walrus. This fucked with me. A lot. Just the knowledge that it's happened all the time....I wanted to cut, and then wanted to kill myself. Lady Miss Friday walked past, but instead of feeling better, I only got more upset that I have so many creatures depending on me and preventing me from doing anything. Spent most of the rest of the night drinking and sobbing next to her, which is not at all how I'd imagined the night to go. A few people reached out to me, but I didn't really have the energy to respond.
We got to the brunch a little more than 30 min after start time, so of course they were still setting up. The boys have such an eclectic group of friends. I stayed with Justin for most of the morning, but when he wandered off, I didn't follow. A bunch of people loved my Hufflepup shirt, and I got a whole table into conversing about their fur babies and showing pics. It was great. Towards the end of the party, I ended up talking with a guy named Ben about music, and he listened to a bunch on my phone. Turns out he just joined the Chorus, though of course I'm not dancing this season, so I won't get to see him again until the Cher show.
Justin couldn't take any more social interaction by the early afternoon, so we left. He offered to just have me take him back to his car, but I was ready to leave as well. I offered to take us to The Hole, but he asked for a rain check. He hopped in his car without coming inside when we got back, so yay for not being disappointed.
Finally alone, I finished hooking up my computer. I have no way of knowing what happened to Splashy, but decided to placate myself by looking up videos of happy sea lions. Among the videos returned were several of starving polar bears attacking herds of walrus. This fucked with me. A lot. Just the knowledge that it's happened all the time....I wanted to cut, and then wanted to kill myself. Lady Miss Friday walked past, but instead of feeling better, I only got more upset that I have so many creatures depending on me and preventing me from doing anything. Spent most of the rest of the night drinking and sobbing next to her, which is not at all how I'd imagined the night to go. A few people reached out to me, but I didn't really have the energy to respond.