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Woke up early again, though I'm not sure what time. Tim wasn't there, and the back door was open, lights on, and front door unlocked. Thanks, Tim. Julian had kept ranting for a while after I stopped responding, and ended with "how can we fix this." I pointed out that his temper is his responsibility, not everyone else's to tiptoe around, and that the cuss out/crawl back dynamic is a textbook example of abusive behavior. It's easier to counsel him from across the country. Laid down again until the sun was at least up, and managed to find crazy close parking. Also saw Lynelle coming into the office at the same time as me, a little more than 30 min before the start of my shift. Made especially sure to not start any actual work until 7:30. Din was out again, so we split his work.
Jeremy, the former porn star I've been trying to help, had posted that his car was impounded and he needed a ride. I offered one at 4, and he messaged me later in the day. What he really needs is $1300 to get his car out of hock, but I don't have it. He settled for someone to talk to, but was short on details, so I tried to be encouraging. He actually felt much better after, though I'm not sure what I did.
Matt Harris wanted to come over at 5:30, but let me know at 5:20 that he was running late. I used the time to pick up my room - putting away the clothes I'd been stuffing in random shelves, or had left in the hamper, etc. He showered when he got there, and we chatted briefly. He thinks I should stay single, and I'm inclined to agree. But "not my boyfriend" doesn't mean a relationship can't be one sided. Really, I'm feeling much better about my Matt's behavior now that I'm making an effort to fuck people during the week/without him. Harris fucked me in a few positions and we chatted more. He's had a long history of work with the government, and took the election especially hard. I tried to participate in the conversation, but he seemed to be mostly venting. Fucked me one more time before he left, and by then it was too late for me to go to the gym or the store.
Tim asked to use my computer, but sat on the couch for about an hour and a half before actually using it. And when he did, he was really going through emails of old pics of himself, and wanted to share them with me. By the time he left, I was half asleep on the couch.
Jeremy, the former porn star I've been trying to help, had posted that his car was impounded and he needed a ride. I offered one at 4, and he messaged me later in the day. What he really needs is $1300 to get his car out of hock, but I don't have it. He settled for someone to talk to, but was short on details, so I tried to be encouraging. He actually felt much better after, though I'm not sure what I did.
Matt Harris wanted to come over at 5:30, but let me know at 5:20 that he was running late. I used the time to pick up my room - putting away the clothes I'd been stuffing in random shelves, or had left in the hamper, etc. He showered when he got there, and we chatted briefly. He thinks I should stay single, and I'm inclined to agree. But "not my boyfriend" doesn't mean a relationship can't be one sided. Really, I'm feeling much better about my Matt's behavior now that I'm making an effort to fuck people during the week/without him. Harris fucked me in a few positions and we chatted more. He's had a long history of work with the government, and took the election especially hard. I tried to participate in the conversation, but he seemed to be mostly venting. Fucked me one more time before he left, and by then it was too late for me to go to the gym or the store.
Tim asked to use my computer, but sat on the couch for about an hour and a half before actually using it. And when he did, he was really going through emails of old pics of himself, and wanted to share them with me. By the time he left, I was half asleep on the couch.
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