Whimper

Julian wanted to cuddle instead of getting up, holding his arms out and whining as I walked around the bed getting ready. I was a bit distant when I dropped him off, and he asked if I was angry. No, just a lot on my mind. I'd made a couple more minor mistakes at work again. My normal monthly meeting with Lynelle is coming up on Tuesday. I resisted the urge to stay later than 4:30, and resisted the urge to skip the gym. I had a stellar workout, thanks to Ms. Grande. I even did cardio for the first time in a while. Julian texted while I was there, asking if we could hang out. Between getting to the gym late and meeting my Mum, I didn't think I'd have time, and told him as much. He asked if I was angry, but I'm not. I just don't think our spending so much time together is good. I wish I knew the right things to say. At least some of them were right, because he honestly told me how he doesn't think it's fair that I'm not his bf, that I didn't give him a TRUE chance. And he kept asking what he did that's so bad I refuse, but there's no answer that will satisfy him, and I told him so.

My mom called when I got home, suggesting we go to Marie Callendar's. I offered to eat before I go and meet them there, and she suggested we just meet at my apt instead....um, sure. No problem, since I am so neat and organized, and my place is so clean. Rushed around doing exactly that - vacuumed, put clothes away, took out the trash, scrubbed the bathroom. I was in desperate need of it anyway, so not a bad idea. At the last minute, I ran to the store and picked up some sweet snacks. Figured it'd be like tea and crumpets. I almost stopped for fuel on the way, too, but decided not to push my luck. Good thing, since Mom and Grandma got there all of 60 seconds after me. Welcome to my gracious drawing room!

Both of them look roughly the same as ever, which is especially amazing for Grandma, because I haven't seen her in.....10 years? More? Lady Miss Friday came out and said hello several times - she seems to like them both. Julian called and texted a bunch, but I wasn't about to interrupt this for his drama. Grandma pulled them away a little before 10, I cleaned up the place and laid down with Friday, jerked off and went to sleep.